An array of love marks.

Happy 21st Birthday Sunshine.

2012-01-30T08:39:00.001+08:00

"If something bad happens to us someday, it’ll never change what we have now, what we’ve always had together. Because love is real and we have to do everything we can to keep it alive. Wherever life takes us, I want it to be with you, forever or until tomorrow."

Cheers to the many more birthdays i hope that we would celebrate together to come; Cheers to the neverending determination we both share in making our long distance relationship work; Cheers to the happy times we have thus far and the more 'tomorrows' we have to come. Cheers to us.

J.

2012-01-28T02:02:00.002+08:00

I'm lucky,
I have that special someone :)

Ahoy Matey! Kit's 21st Birthday.

2012-01-26T15:47:00.002+08:00

2 Saturdays ago... We celebrated Kitty Kwan's 21st Birthday. His 21st birthday celebration plan was a surprise to most of us, which was really sweet of him to actually want to surprise us on his special day when it usually is the opposite. Always the thoughtful boy. Anyway, he booked a yatch to sail us out for the night! #2 time on a yatch but #1 time sailing out. It was an awesome experience, everyone had such an amazing time!! ^^ I do hope Kit did too, he sure looked like he did. :> A picture of the handsome birthday boy to kickstart the photo spams. I think 200 photos are too much for a single entry so like usual, I filtered and selected a few to include in this entry. Warning, massive photo spam ahead!

We were all seated to have the safety briefing first, of which most of i didn't understand or i wasn't paying much attention as i was too captivated by the view of leaving the main island. WE'RE ON THE BOAT HOOYA. And whilst it was moving, we were all struggling to balance on board whilst moving around to take pictures at every little spot. Not something we get to do on a regular basis so we were all pretty psyched! Or at least I was when I hobbled around in my maxi dress, not the best attire actually.

And then we stopped near an island, a little away from the shore for the rest of the night. And we caught the view of the sunset before it disappeared across the horizon. A picture of the boy and me below too, I could barely even stop him much to snap a photo... He was running everywhere with the other guys. -.- Peh and I couldn't go swimming so we spent some time snapping photos and catching up. The helpers on board helped us with frying the food, pouring the alcohol and reheating the pizzas plus washing up for the rest of the night... :) Popped champagne before digging in to celebrate the occasion!

Mr Birthday Boy was looking good! But ahya, he's too shy to take compliments as always. The boys decided to go swimming and kayaking. Initially, it was really funny watching them struggle on the kayaks and then capsizing again. But everyone was having a ball of a time! I presume the pictures speak for themselves so I don't really have to say much. The #3 picture of Jer + Joel + Steven is pretty epic, but they look super excited in the photo. Candid moment (y) As the night progressed on and it was time fr Kit to cut the cake, Serena was holding the cake as I walked infront of her so that she could bring it to Kit but he chose the same moment to return back to the main area -.- Boo.

Couldn't resist the temptation of the sea water so even though I was in a long maxi dress, I tied it to mid-thigh likea man and trudged downwards into the water. I didn't want to risk capsizing but the boat was so wobbly, especially when Jer and I were both sitting on it. And what happened next after we stabilized? Mr kit kwan decided that its one of his birthday wishes to have us drift off into the non-existent sunset so he came down to untie the boat from our kayak. I escaped heheheheh, hopped back onto the boat to let Jerrold fall into the sea by himself. HAHAHA. No la, i passed him the oar of course + the untying stopped. ~(^^)v Kayaked by myself around the boat, really miss doing all the outdoor sports!

Look at all the happy bald + half naked boys below... They look really happy ah. I can't quite recall who had the ingenious idea to open the bottle of champagne at close vicinity to the birthday boy's lower region, but it definitely would make him bow over in pain -.- Poor thing, hahahaha. Kang was more than happy to be the one releasing the cork from the bottle. And somehow, I was lucky enough to capture the classic moment on camera, including another picture of everyone laughing at his misery.

Photo taking mayhem! There was the OCS dream which the 3 boys shared - Unfulfilled, Fulfilled, Given up on. And the OOC dream which only Acy (who aimed for it) + Bram (who already got it) basked in. Made Jer + Kit take their usual bestfriend shot, same pose same position same hug. But this time they complained it was a little gay for their own liking, as they were half naked on the top. Hahahahah. Joke. We begun sailing back to shore when it was close to 11pm, ended the night at Alexandra Arch. Jer and I left early as we were going to Batam the following day. :)

Okay I'm off now, I need to wash the hair mask from my hair and peel my face mask off since the time is up. I haven't got around to pampering my skin nor any part of my body in ages, I don't even use facial foam on a daily basis /: Which i presume is bad :x Ought to make a mental reminder to make me conscientious in my skincare regime before it's too late to regret. Haha. Allright, i'll update once i get the time (which i am not quite certain is soon but i'll try...). Happy CNY everyone! Bask in the festive season and eat more bak kwa + pineapple tarts :) Goodbye, xxx.

Long awaited post; USA/CANADA 2011!

2012-01-22T21:11:00.001+08:00

Gonna blog about my year end trip now.
It'd be pretty lengthy, so don't say I didn't warn youuuu.

On board our Emirates flight to Dubai! Seriously the most comfortable flight ever, plus there are stars on the ceiling when they turn off the lights... *v* And the food was fantastic too, which adds onto the already great service that we had on board. Touch screen in-flight entertainment!! ^^

Singapore to Dubai - 7 hours
Transit in Dubai - 3 hours

Dubai to New York - 14 and a half hours

Let's hear it for Newyorkkkkkkk! We landed and despite feeling a little jetlagged because I virtually didn't get any sleep at all on the flight. We were more pumped up about surprising my cousins, as they had no idea that we were on the same tour as them. But when we were finally able to do so, they all had knowing grins on their faces. After exchanging a few barbs, we were all geared up for the 2 weeks Vacation in USA/Canada! First stop was the United Nations HQ followed by Times Square where I witnessed happy sales ladies dancing to the latest radio heats whilst working @ Sephora. It was such a jubilant and lively atmosphere! :) Really brings in the holiday mood.

Empire State Building was up next! It always reminds me of the scene where Chuck was waiting for Blair at the top of the Empire State Building. We didn't stay for long as winter has short days and longer nights so we hurried over to Grand Central Station. Again, it's just like in the movies just a little more real this time now that we were at the site itself. Ended the night by checking into Sheraton Parsippany Hotel in New Jersey! They served the most delicious breakfast and a huge assortment of choices too. Off to Boston for the day to visit MIT (Massachusetts Institute of Technology) + Quincy Market!

I still remembering going on a rampage in Victoria Secrets. They have the most amazingly comfortable underwear. If i had known it's such a good fit, i'd prolly have purchased more. What's more, the lotions are a must-buy since they are so cheap. Visited A&F, American Outfitters, Gap, Aeropostale, etc since they are all in Quincy Market. It was deadly cold that night, maybe around 7degrees or less? And i was suffering from a really bad flu that night, so it didn't make things any better :( We spent most of the time travelling between places, so it was a real chore having to sit in the coach for such a lengthy period of time. Spent the night in Exeter, New Hampshire.

Heading North for Canada on this day! The tour guide told us to gear up for the harsh winter as it would be -15 degrees in Quebec. (*Cue Jawdrop). Lunch stop was in Vermont right before we crossed the borders to Canada. Met two really cute old ladies who struck up a conversation with Yewt and I. Really friendly and warm people in the town there. Smooth transition at the immigration side and we were finally in Quebec! It's a beautiful place, and it topped the favourites on our list. Just a handful of photos below to show you the snow-capped views and snapshots that we managed to capture. It was however, a teeth-chattering -15 degrees at that point of time so we were really struggling to keep warm. Struggling but with huge smiles of course, it was a splendid sight :>

Super super super... Statuesque. Can't seem to find the right word to describe the place. But anyway, we had heaps of fun playing with the snow flurries and taking tons of pictures. And my joke of a sister always makes the most classic of expressions, it is really her misfortune for letting me capture it on my camera because i've been publicizing the picture everywhere. I have also developed it to put in the family album, both the actual and zoomed in version (as seen below, #1 and #2 pictures).

The #3 photo above really makes her look like an eskimo and a paddington bear at the same time. IT IS VERY FUNNY. HAHAHA. Couldn't take it. She doesn't seem to find it as hilarious as everyone else did, when i zoomed into her face and showcased it to the other 7 people. Hehe. Anyway, the cold was getting to our head so we stopped by one of the quaint cafes to grab some hot chocolate. Mom got us 13 macaroons to share too! I have a weakness for them, plus the ones we got there was so very tasty. ^^ Visited the Parliament Hill in Ottawa before proceeding to 1000 islands in Ontario! Western lunch at a little cafe there, by the rockport :) Hit the streets of Toronto at night, the H&M there was so huge and so many things was going at like... 9 SGD? Madddd cheap. Also because it's the pre-christmas and pre-boxing day sales so everything was so cheaply priced. Explored Toronto the next day :) (Old City Hall, CN Tower, Uni of Toronto, etc)

The long awaited destination... Niagara Falls ^^ Nothing can beat the sights of this place. Niagara falls is the collective name for the 3 different falls over there - Horseshoe Falls, American Falls and Bridal Veil Falls. Niagara falls forms the international border, like a bridge, between Newyork and Canada! Ontario to be specific. We had a really panaromic view of the entire falls plus the weather was on our side, it was shining brightly that day plus a rainbow appeared in the mid day for us to wow at. Honestly, the place was really beautiful :B :) :P Hehe. So glad I got the chance to see one of the natural wonders of the world, alongside the few others i have got the chance to see. We got to take a walk down Falls Avenue and shopped a little before being taken to the Skylon Tower where we could look down on the Niagara Falls! Took even more awesome pictures from the top, as seen below.

Then we were taken to the falls again, to catch another glimpse of it at night. It's still so lovely :B Then we crossed over the Canada Border to complete our journey by catching a glimpse of Niagara Falls from the America side, since there are both sides to the Falls. We couldn't take the boat ride as it was far too cold, boat rides were stopped in late October. Apparently, one of the streams actually froze into a huge block of icicle which fell eventually. And this could have hurt people or caused a huge tide to ensue, so they stopped the boat rides after Winter season is in full force.

Travelled to Philadelphia and we went to Hershey's Chocolate Factory. Everyone went on a crazy chocolate frenzy as we only had an hour to grab all the chocolates we want to purchase before they close for the day, it was Xmas Eve so they were closing early. We celebrated Christmas way later than everyone in Singapore as we were 13 hours behind! Haha. On Christmas Day itself, we travelled to Washington. Toured around Capitol Hill, The White House, Jefferson Memorial, Lincoln Memorial :) I've always had a huge interest in History, this never waned even years after taking History back in Secondary School. Haha. Independence Bell was in Pennsylvania, which was our last stop.

Got to see the Statue of Liberty the next day!!! :D It was so huge. We had to take a ferry to Liberty Island to see it actually. Haha. Back to New York after that. Wall Street next, right after we got to see the remains of what's left behind of the 911 incident. An almost solemn atmosphere hung around the Battery Park where the Sphere was at, it was as though it had never left. Can't quite envision the number of people who have been directly and indirectly affected by the tragic incident. It's sad really. After which, Mom and I popped by Trinity Church which is the church opposite Wall Street. The church experienced a surge in visitors after the 911 incident, apparently many of those who had to seek solace there were involved in the tragedy.. some way or another. It's a beautiful church, and we could only sit through the first part of service before it was time to go. Kinda reminds me of masses that I had to go through back in STC and Kellock days. Something I'd miss, especially the signs of peace we'd give each other in the form of hugs and virtual handshakes. Our trip ended off with shopping at Woodsbury before we took a really long flight back to Singapore the following day.

Newyork to Dubai - 15 hours

Transit in Dubai - 6 hours (!!!!!)

Dubai to Singapore - 7 hours

And so I conclude my rather lengthy post on my year end trip. I am really tired, gotta run! HAPPY CNY EVERYONE ^^ I love this festive season. Hehe :D

Work-in-progress.

2012-01-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

So.... I'm still in the midst of uploading the America/Canada photos so I'm still drafting my post, haven't had much time to sit down and blog much less upload all my overdued photos. I've photos of numerous outings/dates i've had in the month of january + acy's birthday + kit's birthday (where we sailed away into the sunset on a yatch, LIKEA BOSSSS) + batam escape. SO MUCH TO DO. And i am actually bumming my ass off this holiday yet i don't have time to do all these..... I don't know why. Shall resume uploading photos now goodbyeeee.

Unnecessary ramblings.

2012-01-10T01:17:00.000+08:00

In the span of time that I've been back, I haven't actually done much. I got myself adjusted to life back home and I lazed in bed on many days instead of going out, soaking in the holiday mood and enjoying time back in the comfort of my own crib. I've met quite a number of close friends, partied a little and spent many afternoons eating chicken rice for lunch infront of the teevee with the boyfriend. :) Basically, I did all the things I couldn't do back when I'm in Perth, in a different environment altogether. What makes this really sad yet realistic is that I had to take time off to adjust myself back home, to the fast-paced life back here and to the incessant heat, efficient transport system and bustling citylife back in Singapore. And now when I have gotten myself pretty settled in, I have to prepare myself again for my departure. I'm heading back in a little over a month's time and... (no surprise here) I'm not ready. I figure it's still a tad too early to be thinking about leaving but I've always been the sort who likes to be a little more prepared, especially when departures are the hardest things in the world to do. I even got myself to search for flights that would leave a day later than my present departure flight. But... 1) Changing my flight would cost $200 more & 2) A day or two doesn't actually make much difference, I have to leave eventually. My fingers would then close the tab on the browser, it exits together with an uncontrollable yet apparent sinking of my heart. Can i don't leave?

I was told by a really close friend of mine, who has been studying abroad for a few years to date that leaving does not get easier as time passes. You'd think since she's been doing it for quite long that it would get easier to go past the gates and board the plane bound for another island, but no it isn't. And every single time she has to do it, she still struggles with it. Knowing that I've always been the emotional sort, I am pretty certain that I'd never be able to get used to it either. What can i do anyway.... I just have to suck it up, cry buckets, wipe my tears and get over it. It's a cycle that would repeat, until I'm used to it or until I'm back home. Can't say i'm looking forward to doing so. Plus... School begins on 27th February, the actual day when I turn 21. I don't know if that is meant to be depressing, it sure sounds disheartening now. I'd probably be moping around in my room, unpacking my belongings or printing my lecture notes when the clock strikes midnight. )': #sad I've always liked birthday celebrations, always believed that one should feel special on their date of birth since it happens only once a year but i'm not sure about this year's... It seems like it's gonna be different for sure.

Today's the 10th of January.... I need to make my days count from now on. Starting from this moment, I'm going to bed in 15 minutes time before I meet Vanyo for lunch and Bob for dinner. Time's running out - I guess I can sit around and mope about how little time i have left or.... I can do something about it and seize it when I still can. I think the answer is obvious. So i'm off! Goodnight everyone :)

Goodbye 2011.

2012-01-01T01:46:00.005+08:00

"For last year's words belong to last year's language and next year's words await another voice."

2011 is fast approaching to it's end and like always, I'd draft a blogpost in summary of the experiences and lessons i've taken from this year. I don't quite know how to do this as I haven't been blogging much as of late, haven't got much drive to do so but I'll do my best. This year saw me through a series of life-changing moments and also brought me out of my comfort zone and into something new. This year opened my eyes up to who has been there for me and made me appreciate those who never fail to show up when times were hard. In short, this year ended a tad too quickly and whizzed past way too fast. I wish i had more time to enjoy 2011 but alas, a new year of brand new endeavors await. I'm not quite certain if I am looking forward to it but well, bring it 2012. I'm (almost) all ready for you to appear. I just erased a whole chunk of words that I typed as I wasn't particularly satisfied with it, I'll try again.

Earlier this year, I graduated with a Diploma in Business Studies from Ngee Ann Polytechnic. It was a bittersweet affair, afterall I daresay poly days have been the best years in my life so far. I've got to know countless of people and gotten close to a number and kept in contact with a special couple of people who have taken top notch positions in my life. I took time off to go on a few holidays in Bangkok & Genting and even brought the Idare March 2011 Campers abroad to Pahang, where I had one of the best camps ever in my life... Party rock style. Through that, I also got even closer to 4 individuals who still play a huge part in my daily life up till today. Not to forget, the many others such as the ones i got close in poly with, the ones i went through classes with, the ones i got to know during camps, the ones who were there since STC days, the ones i got to know everywhere else but still remained close to.... So many faces, so many names, it's impossible to name them all but i hope they know who they are.

Mid-year approached swiftly after the enjoyable months in the earlier months... It was almost time for a new transition in my life to take place and time was running out swiftly and thinking about the days left only made it harder to let go. I never had enough time to catch up with everyone but I had to make do with it. July came and I left on a new adventure. My Uni life begun in Perth, University of Western Australia. The initial stages were hard and sometimes, nights were rough. I admit I have never been one to be able to accept changes easily, especially when my heart had strings connected to people at home. But I sucked it up. I got to know many individuals who I got along really well with, whom are my friends now :) Took time to adjust to the new education system and i'd say, all's well :)

Returned back to this sunny island on the 25th of November and I've been soaking up the holidays ever since. LG, LIFE'S GOOD. I've also only just returned from my 2 weeks adventure in Newyork/Canada yesterday. I'll get about to uploading photos soon. Meanwhile, I really got to get ready to head out for dinner with the guys. So i kinda rushed through this post, my apologies! Gonna be meeting Haz, Steven and Joel for dinner before Acy and Fiona join us before the clock strikes midnight. Hehehe.

Happy 2012 in advance guys, have a spanking good new year. :)

P.s. Many people have played a part in making 2011 such an unforgettable one, though it's memory is sadly... limited to just today and maybe tomorrow. I am very thankful to those who have been with me through the major hurdles this year and who have bothered to keep in touch despite my disappearance from the local community. Haha. It meant a lot especially in the transition period. Not to forget the few who have also been silently supporting me throughout, I'm grateful. And then there's Jerrold, who also made me happiest throughout 2011. I love you very much, if you're reading this. I look forward to more smooth-sailing times ahead with you :* Family, Friends, Boyfriend... I must have been blessed throughout this year. :) Thankyou 2011, Bring it 2012!!!

Back to Singapore.

2011-12-28T00:39:00.002+08:00

Leaving Newyork City tonight :( NOOOOOOOOOO.
It's been a great 2 weeks of fun America, I'm gonna miss you.

Lets hear it for Newyorkkkkkkkk.

2011-12-20T11:50:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging from Boston! Am gonna be on hiatus till NYE as I just got to New York yesterday :) Gonna be leaving for Canada tomorrow and back to New York before the trip ends. So far so good, even the flight here was awesome. We flew by Emirates so the service + food was superbbbbbb. :) Ok so it's closing midnight now, in Boston and I'm nursing a bad flu so I gotta crash soon. Happy holidays everyone!!

PS. I miss jerrrrrr, :)

LONG POST AHEAD - Pre-Exams + Post-Exams + Summer Break 2011!

2011-12-11T22:55:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the long absence, I've been busy ever since I got back home. Summer break's awesome! It's a well deserved rest after I threw the burden of my first semester's exams and workload into the wind, a heavy burden lifted off my shoulders. Haven't quite got the time to sit down and do up a proper post but I figured I should do so now before I allow the inner sloth in me to take over subconsciously. Here's a peek into what i've been up to since.... a long while ago. Haha my apologies.

So on the day before my last paper, everyone was in high spirits already. I was the ONLY one i knew that still had a paper. Amongst all my friends in Trinity. How tragic you know. And whilst the rest were out playing paintball, I was stuck with staring at my notes. And whilst the trinity people were having a nice dinner at fremantle, i was stuck in the library doing my revision. It was quite hard to get through it since noone was in it together with me. So on the 24th, I received calls/bbms from Wen, Menghan, Jon and Jean. And after some persuasion, I decided to take a few hours off to head for Wen's BBQ. So glad I did, it was nice to see everyone before I left the next day. Though it didn't really matter since I just saw them @ Zouk last wednesday... ^^ But it was a enjoyable night :)

Trinity Dinner! This was after the last week of school commenced, so everyone headed down to Northbridge and we had a satisfying meal before gearing up to mug our way through the weeks ahead. Those were dark times indeed~ hehehehe. But well, I'm glad its over! Now all i'm concerned with is remembering who to meet on which days and deciding where to eat out at.

Ain and Joey's 23rd Birthdays @ Marche!

So it was a surprise in planning. I dated Ain out for dinner and right before meeting her, I had to rush to meet Belle and Aline to pass them Ain and Joey's Birthday Boards. Afterwhich, I dashed like mad to meet Ain on time. I managed to buy time by trying to get her to go to different places whilst Mj organised the rest at 313. When the time was up, I brought Ain over and even after we entered the restaurant, she STILL didn't see the rest sitting a few tables away from us. Everyone was conveniently holding something up to cover their faces and she didn't notice -.- Which is good i suppose. Joey came soon after but he was a wet blanket, he kinda figured things out. Even at the expanse of Edmond's panicky mode that lasted throughout the entire day. All of us had tauhway for dessert and then a few of tbem were raving over Jon's Z4 like little excited kids. Hahaha. And then all of us dispersed, Daniel dropped me home so I got home pretty quickly.

Summer Vacation 2011... In progress!

So we had to brave the crazily erratic weather whilst driving to our destination, despite the initial cluelessness we still managed to get there! Mom and Xuan were sitting behind whilst I helped with directing Jer when he drove. Waiting time was kept at the minimum and everything about the place was so pretty :) We had a couple of bites to last us for the afternoon before leaving the place. Worth a second visit! But maybe on a weekday as it wouldn't be so crowded. Though I'm not too certain about that now since everyone seems to be having their holidays, town's packed on every single day even in the early hours on week days. Bah. And i only know that because... I've been paying the streets too many visits in the past few weeks ever since I got home. Haha. Still have much that I haven't tried though!

I got to see Babypp after she was done with her dreadful examinations, just like me! Haha. We got to try the colourful XLBs @ Paradise Dynasty :) Spent the day catching up with her and filling her in on the many things that happened in Perth, always loved the fact that I can blabber to her nonstop about everything and she would always listen deeply even if they are mostly mindless chatters. Spent the next day's dinner with her, Wc and Jer prior to catching Already Famous in the theatre. But other than the fat boy in the movie (who was superrrrrrr adorable), the show was pretty boring to me. Too many obvious sponsorships and overused jokes, I think it definitely has a long way to go compared to movies from the likes of local producers such as Jack Neo. But I'd say Michelle Chong did do quite a good job in her role :) Not to forget about Waicheong, who lost soooooo much weight. His head looks so big compared to his body, can't imagine how boney he would be once he reaches the ideal weight set by SAF. All the army boys around me are shrinking, 'cept for a couple who gained mass so they look significantly fitter.

Even the boyfriend who hasn't done much 'cept for eating and maybe abit of gyming prior to my homecoming, has gained a few kilograms. And he's still whining about how I am the only one in the world who doesn't think he has grown fatter/bigger. Haha. He's still too skinny :( After the movie was over, Jer and I chilled with Khaidan and Van over a few drinks at Holland V's Indochine before Kd dropped all of us back. Didn't manage to get any photos with Char when we met on Tuesdaybut like always, time always passes really fast when we're together. I tried Ippudo for the first time when we met, and it was rather... different from normal ramen outside. I'd definitely pay it a 2nd visit ^^ Hehe. And I am looking forward to the next meeting love, I know you're seeing this! Hehehe. :*

Zouk/Phuture/Velvet on Wednesday, Winebar on Saturday. It was unplanned, the second one. But I had to go since I haven't got around to seeing Josh or Benchew in a really long while. But prior to that, I was at Jer's cousin's wedding. It was a really pleasant and beautiful one, I always loved weddings; they signify a new beginning of a chapter together for the newlyweds and also, a union of 2 blessed individuals in the eyes and presence of everyone in relation to them. Not to mention, the bride looked absolutely breathtaking and happiness seemed to radiate from her. Perhaps that's why she looked like she was glowing. Jer was the designated driver for the newlyweds so I waited with him till they were done before dropping them off at their hotel.

At 2am together with Kd, Van, Jean and Jer, we were at the front of Zouk. Haha. With no intentions to club, on my side that is. Josh bought Khaidan snow white and seven dwarves, and the way they drank it is different from others. Insteading of taking shot by shot, half the beer has to be consumed before mixing in ALL the 7 SHOTS into the glass of beer. Last step? Downing the poison. And after I got him a ferrari, Khaidan claimed his memory for the night ended there. HAHAHAHA. I wasn't any better, had a super lambo + a ferrari + a few jugs and I wasn't feeling too good. But my body's terrible at expelling alcohol so the only thing i could do was sleep it all off that night. Jer sent me back home that night before heading back on his own, hehe i love jerrold tan ♥v♥

OK I AM VERY TIRED.

I shall continue this another time, in a separate blogpost. Meanwhile, cheers if you've managed to read till here! I don't quite know how anyone can do that, with all my unorganized and messy ramblings. I'm gonna catch some shut eye in hope that I'd wake up feeling better, been nursing a chesty cough + phlegmy flu + coarse throat + throbbing head + body aches/chills for a couple of days to date already. I'll update again about.... My meeting with Serbb + Elle's 21st Yatch Party @ One Degrees 15 soon. Once I get the time to do so. Goodnight readers, xxxxx.

HSH.

2011-11-28T12:17:00.000+08:00

This post is a little late but yay..... I AM FINALLY HOME. Hehehe. But can't say that I've seen Singapore at it's best the past few days but well, there's nowhere like home. I haven't quite been able to keep up with the pace 'cause it's so chill and laidback back in Perth. And i've been feeling sick from the more polluted air back here, been hit by dust allergies two mornings in the row. /: What I had to get a little un-used to now that i'm back home would be: not waking up to the voice of Ain calling me to head down for breakfast, to listen to the slamming of doors in the corridor, to run down the hallway and knock incessantly on Mj & Ain's doors, to smell the faint scent of body soap that i'm quite sure belongs to Belle and of course, seeing everyone in the dining hall. Somehow, it's a good feeling to be back here. Like i said before, it's as though I never left. The picture above depicts a rather beautiful skyline of Singapore. ^^ Hehe, it's great to be back. I've got this week and next few weekends packed already, can't wait to see the many faces I miss! The boyfee's coming over for lunch now, okay i hear the doorbell he's here! Bye everyone, have an awesome break/week ahead :)

2 down, 2 to go.

2011-11-18T20:11:00.001+08:00

I'm tired of all the work that i have to repeatedly cram into my head within a short span of a few days. I don't understand how examinations has to determine the amount of knowledge i have, it makes certain that i am a commodity of today's market and society. I enjoy what I study but put me in a silent exam hall with just the sound of scribbling parchments as well as the ticking of the clock in the tension filled atmosphere, I panic. I panic and nothing comes back into my head even as I grasp on tight to the sniplets of information from my lecture slides, tutes and textbook. To no avail, unfortunately.

I just can't wait for this period to be over. I can't wait to run back from the Undercroft to Trinity and then grab my luggages before calling a cab to the airport. Oh I think I forgot to mention about my flight back. My last exam ends @ 1230 and my flight back to Singapore is @ 1550. HAHAHAHA. Which leaves me only half an hour to hop onto the cab and to reach the airport by 1330 so that I'm in time to check in my stuff. What's more.... The ride from Trinity to the Airport is about, 30mins away? Haha. Time would be tight. And I'd also have to pack all my belongings beforehand + shift all my stuff into the storage room + vacate my present premises prior to sitting for my paper @ 9am. It's a mad rush on that day... BUT SO VERY EXCITING. And then together with a bunch of my favourite trinity friends (Ain, Ashley, Joey and Felix), we're gonna be on our way to the airport, dancing in the cab with our luggages and finally going back Home. Ohyeah~

Meanwhile, I have another 2 examinations to prepare for prior to the day of liberation. Goodbye.

Finals Week.

2011-11-13T19:33:00.001+08:00

First Uni Paper tomorrow! Economics & Business Statistics. One of my greater fears this semester, so wish me luck! I'm more worried about waking up early for this 9am paper because I've been sleeping at 4+ 5am lately, 'cept for last night when I crashed into bed at 1odd. Woke up with blood shot eyes these few days... Probably the lack of rest and my skin isn't looking too good either /: I've got to run, gonna do some last minute revision and try to retire earlier tonight. Bye!

Screw the distance.

2011-11-10T00:23:00.000+08:00

"You get closer and there's nowhere in this world I'd rather be.

Time stops like everyone around me is frozen.

And nothing matters but these,

Few moments when you open my mind to things I've never seen."

Halloweekend (Delayed)

2011-11-09T14:01:00.003+08:00

It was a 1030pm decision, when a few of us girls were chilling in Ain's room, with absolutely no mood to continue studying at all. Someone suggested 'The Court' and everyone pounced on the idea almost straight away. We rang up the other girls from Derry and Argryll and off we went, after a mere half an hour of preparation! So it was supposed to be an all-girls affair initially. Ain, Steff, Jo and Za hopped onto a cab and went first whereas Mj, Aline, Belle and I waited for Belle's friend, Eka to pick us up. Belle's really spontaneous, she reached Court and the first thing she did was open 2 bottles of Champagne. #likeaboss. I remember it was a night that I had to pay for with too much drinks in my system. Wine prior to leaving Trinity and then Champagne + I can't remember-what @ Court. All of us girls were having a ball of a time when the destination changed for 3 of us, and of course... Prolonged the night also, from the initial plan of going back at 2am which was when Court closes.

Together with Ain and Belle, we joined Eka, Errol and their friends @ Metro City. The queue was insane when we got there but we managed to cut to the front and to my surprise.... Isabelle and Jessica were in the queue too! Isabelle's super tiny and I wore high platforms that night so I pretty much had the added height advantage, though not as tall as many. Hahaha. All of us had so much drinks to stomach that night, this eeky shot that contained Barcardi 151 + Tequilla + Vodka in one tiny little deadly dose. It's prolly half my thumb in height! But I had far too many that night when the generous Eka bought for everyone drinks till I think.... Not a single soul wasn't tipsy. Keyword's tipsy not wasted. Haha. Plus I-can't-recall-how-many Jaggerbombs too! The night was a blurrrrrrr. Oh plus Quanjun, Becky, Rachel, Eric were there as well. Weiwen contacted me from Court and came over to Metro right after I told him I left Court for Metro. With Shiyun and his friends as well. What a bro! Haha. But he was pissed drunk, which would explain the really retarded picture he took below on his own. Hahaha. I suffered the consequences of drinking too much the next day, bah.

I think my liver likes to skip right past the tipsy stage straight to the hangover stage. I wasn't falling over myself nor did I require help to walk that night but I knew i was gonna pay for the amount I had. Suckkkkkyyy feeling :( Scrambled eggs @ Eka's place with Errol, Belle and Aline before he dropped us back @ Trinity. It was 5plus in the morning and it was as bright as say... 11am in Singapore. Urgh. Wasted a lot of time recovering from the overdose the night before, and Ain Belle and Mj were so sweet to check up on me the entire day :B ^^ Heheheh. Mj even made me a bowl of pipping hot noodles for dinner. Hehehe. And I decided to do a quick post since I'm gonna be busy the next 2 weeks preparing + taking my final exams for this semester. So I probably wouldn't have time to blog much :(

This semester passed really fast, can't believe that in about 17 days from now, I'd be touching down in Changi Airport already :) What's even luckier is that I found out Felix is on the 3.55pm SQ flight with me! Hoorahhhhh. At least I've company throughout the flight. And we're gonna be cabbing to the airport with Joey, Ain and Ashley who are taking the 3.25pm Qantas flight. I can't wait for the 25th to arrive, where I can get my last paper over and done with and head back. Summer break awaits my arrival, ^^ Hehe. Gotta run now, goodbye readers.

The last weekend to party.

2011-11-02T00:10:00.003+08:00

Metro City on Saturday Night... Super impromptu decision which saw 7 of us girls leave Trinity all decked up in our party outfits and for some of us, a tinge of alcohol in our bloodstream. I'll post more pictures once I get about to uploading them, :) I didn't actually wanted to club cause I had my MNO paper coming up but I figured, hey it's only a few hours right? Plus it would be the last weekend to party before study break + exams follow suit in the next few weeks from now. The amount I consumed that night was rather insane, it was more like the concoction of everything that got me into such a bad shape the next day. I recovered, though it was a tad too slow for my liking, and I had Ashley Ain Belle Jo Joey all of them checking up on me that day so I really felt very loved ^.^ HEHE. It's always nice to know that even though I'm thousands of miles away from home, there are still people here who make the present feel like home. Like how I am pretty sure I belong in Ain's kampong of a room, considering the number of times I've spent rolling on her and her bed. Hehe. I've come to realize my decision to come to Trinity was a even better one than I thought, if not I wouldn't have got to meet some of these very wonderful individuals around me :)

I gotta head to bed now, I had a few hours of sleep yesterday and my body's feeling the effects now. Head's spinning and I feel the exhaustion all the way to my bones. Goodnight everyone!

I don't want the world to see me.

2011-10-31T11:08:00.004+08:00

At the end of the day, it's still this face that I miss.

There are instances that I think I'm fine, when thinking home wouldn't trigger any onslaught of unwanted emotions that would take me straight to the waterworks. Then there are the nights where the only sounds that I can pick up on are those in my head, when closing my eyes I end up face to face with what I've been trying to escape from. I'm thankful for the few people in Perth that I hold close to heart, even more grateful that whilst I was nursing a badass hangover last night, I had a few of my favourite faces (which i have got accustomed to seeing on a daily basis fyi) dropping in - making me instant noodles, checking up on me and such. I had a warm and fuzzy feeling inside that produced a goofy smile on my face. I daresay i've taken quite a liking to Perth because of the people I meet here and the more laidback lifestyle, despite the fact that I always lament on how little time I have on revision. I need to grasp it at it's roots and nip everything in the bud, just wish I had more discipline to do so. Meanwhile, I really need to get back to revising for my mini class test @ 2pm and try to get everything back on track.

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming. Or the moment of truth in your lies.

When everything seems like the movies. Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

Sundays just mean Monday's nearing.

2011-10-23T16:24:00.000+08:00

Spring Fest 2011 @ UWA, Guild Village.

This was taken 2 weeks back i think? When Spring Fest was in full swing.

My weekend of enjoyment is over, (I'll leave the details and the happenings to the next post or next next post... Hahaha) even though I'm still feeling euphoric now that all the projects and assignments are done. (*inserts happy dancing emoticon) I'm left with mini tests and quizzes for the next 2 weeks and then it would be Study Break. And then 2 weeks of Examinations for me, 4 papers. And then i'll be packing my belongings, bidding farewell to Perth during Summer Break. I wish I could fast forward till then. But well... I can't :( Enuff said, the amount of revision/work that I have yet to complete is scaring me. What's more, I'm not up-to-date with iLect(s) for almost all units. Scratch that, it's ALL. Shoot.me.now. I should focus on my work now, goodbye! Oh &... I miss my boyfriend :) Hehe.

Perth Royal Show 2011 :)

2011-10-21T00:52:00.003+08:00

Perth Royal Show 2011! Hehe. One of the much anticipated events for Western Aussies here. So it was right after lunch when Mark, Mian, Joey, Sam, Steph, Felix, Jo and Jo's friend set off for Claremont Showgrounds where the annual Perth Royal Show's located. The bus ride there was hilarious when Joey tried to beautify himself and failed quite miserably. We trudged along the pavements before finally reaching our destination. It's my first time and considering Western Australia really has so much land and space, the carnival was really huge. There were stores, exhibitions, showbags on sale, live performances, food and drinks, rollercoasters, rides, game booths and even a petting animals section! I got up and personal with a couple of animals, though I did leave the pigs out of the options but there were still lambs, dogs, sheeps, ducks, owls, hamsters, etc.

I spent alot of time just looking around, laughing, playing a few games and well... It was a good saturday spent away from the projects, assignments and deadlines that were taking up time and space in my organizer. It felt good not having to face work on a weekend, which I have been used to doing here since Uni's really been so hectic all these while. Jo and her friend disappeared to take rides and win giant soft toys and everyone around me were winning stuff too, ^^ I can't believe we even stayed all the way till nightfall to catch fireworks. And you know what's really amazing? They distributed 3D glasses to everyone and we all watched the Fireworks in 3D. HOW AWESOME IS THAT. The colours were psychedelic and everyone kept oohing and aahing throughout the half an hour demonstration of fireworks. Magnificent's not really the right world but it's close enough. Beats any fireworks I've seen in Singapore hands down, this made everyone awestruck. ^^ THAT GREAT k. Hehe.

I am so tired that my blogpost today would be a little short. In the past 2 days, I've only spent 8 hours sleeping. And I am so drained from the deadlines I had to meet this week, I have never felt so liberated this semester. All the projects are completed as of now, one more submission tomorrow anddddd ohyeah~ I am done! Haha. Of course there are still mini quizzes coming up right before the Final Exams which are approaching in a month's time but I'll probably take this weekend off. A well-deserved break from the lack of sleep, the hardwork and the hair-pulling moments I've spent stressing over everything. I'm gonna get some well-deserved rest before I head out with Val and Jo tomorrow. Oh and I spent the past few hours with Ashley, Ain and Belle painting nails, chit-chatting and doing nothing. And they are really great company, wish this semester didn't have to end so soon cause I doubt we would get to be neighbours next semester /: Ok I'm gonna crash, goodnight all!

International Love.

2011-10-16T17:24:00.005+08:00

I like to do detailed entries as much as I can, I like to look back on these posts in the near future and be able to immerse myself in the feelings that I felt at that point of time, in that moment. I still do so once in awhile, looking back and being appreciative. I think many things have shaped me into who I am today, the good and the bad alike. And I guess without the tough experiences and the various obstacles that once exist, I wouldn't be grateful for how it has made me grow.

My relationship with Jer would prolly be stuck at a stagnant stage of familiarity if I didn't choose to go overseas. Apart from me having to get used to him being an army boy, all I have to do is wait for him to book out if I am back home. Spend time with him, knowing that the clock is ticking. But now when I'm overseas, what's book out time? It's just another chance we get to talk a wee bit more over BBM or maybe an occasional phonecall or two... That's all. I guess it's altogether a different experience to be in a long-distance relationship and no matter how many people tell me that they understand how i feel and they 'feel' me, I know they don't. Perhaps it's their way of saying they are there for me, reassuring me. But I do know that unless they have been through the same thing, they aren't even close to feeling the distance. Its wide, its fearful and it's unbearable at times - It takes everything to a different level. The physical proximity, holding hands, sharing glances, fleeting scents and playful glances, suddenly they seem all the more far away and not important. I went into this, knowing how painful it would be and how LDR has proven to be quite a failure in many people's eyes - But when i'm here, BAM. It's a totally different feeling, no amount of preparation could make me prepared.

So what can I say? Haha. I think we are taking this whole long distance thing pretty well, we don't fight, we don't argue and we don't restrict each other. Sure, the missing gets tough and sometimes the nights (really) get to me but I try to look ahead and know that as long as I get past today, tomorrow's a little nearer till the day I get to see Jer. And when the weekend comes, all the better... (: Distance makes the hearts grow fonder, popular saying & contains a depth of meaning to it that I never used to really understand. But well here's to my Boyfriend who's been a sweetheart till date, Happy 10th. We are still young, still basking in the honeymoon period (okay i've been told honeymoon = first 2/3 months of dating/getting together.... Whatever, my honeymoon's forever ^^ HAHAHAAHHA) and still doing well. Hehe.

Okay I'm off, I've spent too much time digressing! I should get back to staring at this screen and hoping that somehow my brain can comprehend everything Excel and all the Regression shit is trying to tell me. No surprise that it's not helping much just peering at the figures. So I really should get to it before the Library closes at 6pm. I haven't been able to blog much, totally forgot that I'm supposed to do one up on the Perth Royal Show.... I'll do it soon, before this week kills me with the upcoming deadlines on Thursday and Friday. Goodbye!

8 hours more.

2011-10-11T01:51:00.000+08:00

I would officially be a Army Girlfriend in 8 hours time.

Honestly, the things he wishes to do for me makes me speechless, it even made me tear. In a good way. I guess i was touched, it was somehow beyond my comprehension. And even though I'm far away, it's as though nothing really changed. I love you B, can't wait to Skype with you when you're botak :)

Hammypants.

2011-10-09T20:32:00.001+08:00

I miss you when the nights are silent, I miss you when the going gets tough, I miss you when I see something that reminds me of you, I miss you when I hear your voice yet I know you aren't just a bus + train ride away, I miss you when the stress builds up at school, I miss you in the early mornings; in the dead of the night; and everywhere in between. But I'm gritting my teeth, trying to be a big girl about it when I wish I could just hide in a corner with all the ever-haunting emotions. Life goes on right? Perhaps these 2 years away would teach me to live with all these seemingly overwhelming feelings, and maybe... Just maybe... One day, I'll look back and say that the lessons derived from this entire experience is worth it. I can't say it makes anything at present any easier, even though I wish I could fast forward all the hard times. I'm glad we've been fine, more than fine actually. I'm lucky that you're ever so understanding. But I wish the distance didn't take such a toll on me some times.

Beers and Pizzas.

2011-10-08T02:27:00.002+08:00

Oktoberfest ^^ @ UWA Tavern. First time in my life, drinking at 5pm in the afternoon when the sun is still high up in the sky. Impromptu shopping trip with Jean, Angie and Eloise before that, for the first time... An all-girls outing. Haha. So after we were done with shopping, Jean dropped the 2 girls off and we headed to the Tavern. It was quite a funny scene to see how everyone around us burst into verses of songs, in.unison. I recorded part of it as voice notes and forwarded it to some people on WA. Mega funny, entertaining would be a better word actually. Ohmygawd. Spent so much time laughing, drinking beer, having frankfurters, laughing even more at this aussie dude who spoke to us. Apparently, his pick up line is "do you like dota?" Hahahah, whuuuut. He asked me for my name, I said "xian" and he said "me too." -_______- HAHA. I burst into laughter. Guess alcohol does make people loosen up quite a fair bit, and gives liquid courage to many. Haha.

Dinner @ Little Caesars! It's renowned for it's pizza all over Australia, apparently it's one of Aussie's Best(s). Haha. My verdict's that.... it's up to standard, and the different combinations are intriguing. Creative, cause they broke away from the standard concepts of hawaiian, pepperoni, etc. I had one with chicken satay, another with oysters and my favourite's the one with lamb and some sort of sour cream on it... Super delish. I'm a sucker for sauces, all types. Ended the night a little early today, so I'm spending friday in as I'd be heading over to the Perth Royal Show tomorrow. It's a carnival sort of event with animals roaming around, rides, game booths, food stalls etc. Can't wait! Apparently, it's a highly anticipated event yearly. Akin to National Day i heard? But in Perth. Every night, I can hear the fireworks from the event from my room's balcony window. It's been on for a week and tomorrow is the last day already. Hopefully I would be able to catch the fireworks in person :)

Mid-Sem/Spring Break in Singapore!

2011-10-04T23:50:00.001+08:00

Hi all. I'm finally getting myself down to blogging about the awesome week I had back in Singapore when I flew back during the Mid-Sem break last week. Haha. Most of the photos I took are up on Facebook but they aren't much anyway, I was too busy soaking up the humidity in Singapore to take as many photos as I wanted to. Plus there were days that I was a little too lazy... Haha. Apologies for the late updates! I do miss blogging on a regular basis but now that school's in full swing, I think I got to sort out my priorities. I haven't got down to the study mood yet and I really should before it's too late. Allright photosssss here we go, before I continue to ramble on what's flowing through my brain:

The excitement of going home and seeing people I miss so much didn't build up even when Jean, Jon and Yang sent me to the airport. It was a tad too early for me to check in as my flight was at 3.55pm and I was there at the airport at 12noon so I sat myself down at the cafe with a small cup of tea and did my essay on my mac. Cracked my brain but it was hard to do so without the use of internet, so I drifted off here and there. Then suddenly... High tide in my bladder so I was urgently praying for the counters to open and once they did, I struggled with my bags (cause i have to pay 4AUD for renting a trolley, no wayyyy hahahah) and after dropping 'em off, I entered the gates. Walked around a little, enjoying the fact that I'm about to fly solo (for the first time) back to S'pore. It was still early so I caught 2 episodes of Gossip Girl before boarding the flight.

I was more psyched about travelling alone, I quite like the feeling of flying on my own though ;) The 2 seats next to me were empty so once the plane was in taxi, I pushed up the arm rest and chilled like a baus with my leg propped up ^^ Read 2 chapters from my Workplace Relations textbook even though I had to try really hard cause it's mad boring. Caught an episode of HIMYM after watching a movie. Stoned. And i was still like whut, 2 hours away from landing in Spore? -.- Excitement build up starts about now. I walked at the speed of light when the plane landed. I WAS TOO EARLY. The luggages weren't even out on the conveyor belt yet, how fail. Used the pay phone to ring Jer and not long later, I was out of the gates. First person i saw was my Mum, who teared after seeing me. Silly woman, haha. Then I saw Dad, Xin and finally B. :) Who handed me a cup of Hazelnut Koi. ^^

The next few days saw me spending quality time with Mum + Jer. The 3 of us went out together, and we went almost everywhere. I like how my mom and boyfriend can go out together for dinners and such even when I'm away, and she buys loads of stuff for Jer too. Jer drove Mum's car around during the days when the 3 of us went out cause she's always lazy to drive and she said "hey, i don't get to sit in the backseat of my car oh-kay!' Haha. Spent some alone time with Jer, doing what we used to do before I left. It felt like nothing changed, movies meals shopping conversations... They flowed like how they did before. And I guess i miss that, miss doing things that i was accustomed to doing. I even got to see Kitty and Serena who was working at that time. Kit was like an excited boy sharing his NS stories and demonstrating what he does during trainings.

Not to mention, I even got around to meeting up with the BIT boys + Winnie on one of the nights. This was right after steamboat + desserts with the cousins and family, Calvin brought us to the cheesecake factory at Siglap and the cakes were super delish! But we weren't allowed to take photos else I would have added a few more shots to the food shots in my album. Hweesheng picked Jer and I up from my place that night after we headed back from a full stomach of cheesecakes and we went to Marina Barrage. The picnic idea kinda failed cause noone ate much but there were so many NS stories shared that night, Charlie and Jer got bored. Hahaha. Following which, we had rochor tauhway!

Met quite a number of people but not everyone. Glad that I got to see many faces that I missed, a pity that I couldn't meet up with as many people as I wanted. Plus it was so hard to coordinate with everyone, tiring i would say. Time was a factor, and it was running out really fast when I was back home. With a blink of an eye, the days whizzed past like the wind. But it was a worthy trip, for sure. I managed to restock supplies I needed for school and grab a couple of outfits that I wanted to wear back here in Perth and basically... Recharged my energy level for the next 2 months to come before the term ends. Yexun surprised me with my first welcome home phonecall, plus he did so right after his OP. I was really touched and pleasantly surprised. I still have some food stuff that I haven't passed to everyone that I met, I'm getting a little too forgetful :(

I went for dimsums, brunches, food hunts and even tried new (good) food all over. Kinda made me appreciate the variety of food back home whereas here, there isn't as much and it just doesn't taste the same. I'm too much of an asian food girl, never been a fan of deep fried western food. Haha. Didn't really get to spend time with Xin and Xuan, they were both busy too. But I like how nothing changes between us and how I can irritate them still like before, I don't think we need to spend time building what's already there and what's already strong between the 3 of us. Xuan got me hellopanda and Xin made a trip just to get me 2 giant ass macaroons, both are snacks I really enjoy. Appreciate it, XX ^^ And of course there's the boyfriend who really put up with me throughout the entire week, massaging my sore shoulders being my personal assistant/driver/etc and well... he was a sweetheart, he's always been. I'm lucky, a very fortunate girlfriend. He lets me boss him around and still has a huge grin etched on his face in the process. He sings like noone's watching when we are in public, acts silly with his retarded antics and he's still the same boy i fell in love with.

Not forgetting the impromptu club trip that I thought wasn't gonna happen, prolly because most of my party people weren't around. But it was a good night spent, though I'd gladly take clubbing in Perth over Singapore 'cause... I don't sweat here whereas back home, it's like 100degrees on the dancefloor with all the jostling bodies and predator-like boys. Urgh. The guys left Michelle, Char and I for like a few minutes and we got surrounded. But well, what's new right. Those things still don't change. Noel was working that night so he got us drinks, so nice of him ^^ Danced till my feet were sore and I had to convince Jr to let me go home on my own. It didn't work of course, so we went back together and he was dead wasted. Bet he would deny if he knows I said this. Hahahahah. Burden.

I got home around 4plus and I was due for a dental appointment at 10am. Mad. Got up at 930 for it and I felt like a zombie. Breakfast with the parents and then I got back home. Lunch with my favourite poly bunch ^^ Kinda surprised that so many of 'em turned up! Acy, Steven, Daryl Ken, Haziq, Fiona, Joel, Kit, Serena, Jer and I had Prata @ Prata Planet (seriously, such a retarded name. Prata PLANET?!?) Haha. Then just like old times, we had problems deciding where to go next. Ended up standing at some random spot for super long, then we went over to Clementi Mall. I had an appointment so Jer and I left them after awhile. But it was really good to see everyone, it's been so long that I got to see everyone at the same place. And we all used to meet so very often. Most of the boys have gone into NS, and our lives are somehow growing apart. /: Sad to say.

The night before leaving Singapore was rather crappy I guess. I couldn't get to sleep cause I had a really stuffed nose and B was trying to take care of me throughout the night. I was due to wake up at 630am and at 3am, I was listening to the steady breaths of Jer and Xin, glancing every now and then to see if they are asleep. I couldn't get myself to sleep even though it was my last night in that familiar bed, familiar surrounding. It seemed sad somehow. Xin didn't want to send me off, saying that she would only fetch me back and would never send me off. Got me kinda teary cause i never expected her to say that. Ohwells. /: Goodbyes are not my thing. So at 7am, Dad Mom and Jer helped me load my luggages and off we go. And to my surprise, Peh and Khaidan were there to send me off too! I never expected to see the douche cause he just got back from USA two nights before. Breakfast together even with my 'rents and then it was time to leave. Can't say that it's easy, but I was on the same flight as Val and Tiff so it was a reassuring factor somehow. Made 2 phonecalls before I boarded the plane.

Got to know the lady who sat next to me and we spent around 2 hours chitchatting. She used to be a NP lecturer and she was on a business trip with her partners so she had loads to share, we even discussed about how Ngee Ann gave so many opportunities to their students and I admitted that I did miss Poly life. It was a fun-filled 3 years where I got to know so many people and gained immense experience, I wouldn't hesitate to relive it if I could but everyone looks forward and moves ahead, so the times I had back there would always remain as fond memories. Her business partners were really nice also, they were engaging as well plus they helped me with my luggages. I must have looked like I was really struggling. /: Got out of the airport to find my dear roomie, Jean waiting for me at the pick up point. Don't know what i'd do without her really :) And then it was back to Trinity, where I am now. I miss Singapore but I know i'd be back soon, so.... I'm gonna do lectopia now, goodbye!

It's Friday already.

2011-09-30T10:54:00.003+08:00

My #2nd last day left in Singapore, I really wish I didn't have to go.

Been trying to take in everything I could, even though it's not like i'm not gonna be back but thinking of the amount of work that's waiting for me to tackle.... I wish i could just escape. Walked home with Jiarong last night and he was saying it's different cause he doesn't get to irritate me as often, even though our blocks are side by side. Can't help feeling a little sad about it. /: Sleeping in my own bed, efficient transport, seeing everyone everywhere.... But i've well accepted the fact that going through today's challenges would make me look back in future and give myself a pat on the shoulder, i guess whatever that is in stored for me would make me grow into someone different.

We've been doing pretty fine till date, and i'm glad the distance thing still worked out for us when I see how others can't seem to handle the miles aspect. I'm gonna miss Jerrold, alot.

SPRING BREAK 2011!

2011-09-25T02:32:00.000+08:00

Woke up and saw this face on the floor, with his skinny form rolling around in his sleep. He always seems to be smiling, it's contagious sometimes. ;) It's familiar yet at the same time, it isn't - We went on a date like how we used to do, food movies shopping supermarkets and endless talking. I had a wonderful time, 'cause its with him. Somehow, it's like these 2 months didn't happen. And as much as i wish it didn't, i know this break's my holiday and i'd have to go back to Perth (I typed Singapore by the way, urgh fail) at the end of these few days. Something I can't say i'm looking forward to but I guess the time spent is a lot easier with good friends that i've there. Jean, Joanna, Mian, Joey, etc just to name a few. But welllllll.... I'm gonna be positive about this spring break since it's commencing now and I have really been fully utilizing my time. I just got back from supper with the BIT boys (plus Winnie too) and I got up at 9am today! Haha. I'll prolly blog more in detail if I have the time and once i get the photos up, but i'm off to bed now for yet another day ahead tomorrow. Goodnight y'all!

Seriously man, the food the transport the people the culture the accent the speech the lifestyle the racial harmony the familiarity.... I LOVE SINGAPORE. There is no place like home.

Young & Wild~

2011-09-21T01:40:00.000+08:00

Metro City last weekend!

It was the end of Mid-Sems for us, even though it's not quite the case for the others. Weiwen, Jon, Jean and I decided at the last minute to hit the clubs. It was just us 4 but it was a pretty awesome night! Am looking forward to going back home, spring break is coming!

Sweet Disposition.

2011-09-18T16:59:00.000+08:00

Jerrold ❤

Just a few more days...
Can i fast forward to the end of the week already?

SUPRE!

2011-09-16T23:57:00.000+08:00

Jean and I drove over to Supre's Headquarters in Osborne Park just now. We were relying on Jean's retarded GPS to take us there and it screws up so we only reached there later than the time stipulated even though it wasn't that far. The area was filled with warehouses and seemed like a production land, so it felt kind ulu somehow. We spotted the Supre sign and parked the car before walking in towards the place. And both of our mouths fell open the instant we stepped in. LOOK AT ALL THE INSANE 5 DOLLAR SIGNS in the picture below. We had an hour to shop and I actually lug 20 hangers worth of clothes into the fitting room. Crazy i swear. But there wasn't enough time to finish up the entire place cause they close early, all shops close early daily -.- It's just far too many things to buy and so much cheaper than the Supre Retail Outlet @ Perth City. Goodness.

Seriously, this is just one angle of the place. I was a little lost when walking through it, kinda didn't know where to start. This place beats City and Harbourtown hands down for sure. ^^ But it's so inaccessible via public transport, it's prolly only a short drive down, the public transport system here is mega inefficient and really slow compared to S'pore. After shopping, we went over to Broadway to pick and meet the rest. Val gave me a huge box of mooncakes!! ^^ Hehe. And then dinner was with Yang, Jean and Jon cause Menghan, Justin, Eloise and Angie were somehow lost? Haha. All of us met to get bubble tea after that @ Northbridge though, and then called it a night for a number of us. I still have ITF to settle before Group Meeting tomorrow. :( So tired of studying really, allright gotta run bye.

I refuse to countdown... At least, not yet :B

2011-09-11T00:02:00.001+08:00

The weekend is almost over. :( But I'm looking forward to getting next week over and done with. And before I am done with Sunday, I already have a few friends telling me that they know what my facebook status would be the night before Monday. Well... I can't help it right? Haha.

Saturday Night.

2011-09-10T18:01:00.000+08:00

I just got back from studying in the library. And I decided to make my saturday a little less mundane so I'm going for dinner with Jean, Weiwen and Jon. Jean's awesome, she's gonna be picking me up straight from Trinity so I'm awaiting her arrival. I still have quite a lot of revision undone, not to mention how I'm really trailing behind in Stats (I always complain ._.) so I hopeeee... We get back earlier tonight so that I can finish up my work. I rang B just now when he was at work and filled him in on the latest happenings. Phonecalls work alot better than Skype cause connection here is mad laggy from the rooms :( I'm a little lazy to type out everything, I'm a more vocal person. Last night saw J, M and J at my room soaking up Friday Night with 3 different kinds of liquor - But no heavy duty drinking, just chill drinking cause we needed to be up for lunch today. I didn't shop this week, I am proud of myself. Retail therapy is an indulgence, I'd probably do so next week when I am done with mid-sems. Thankgoodness I only have 1 paper though, but the Stats mini test on Monday actually worries me more. I wish I was good with maths, :( Numbers make me go @.@. Haha. Ok Jean's here, gotta run bye!

I miss my boy.

2011-09-08T17:40:00.000+08:00

Air-mail! Hand-carried from Singapore to Perth by my Roomie. :>

Mid Sem for M&O is next week, and I am not even halfway done with my revision. Help? Plus I am so weak in Stats that it is really worrying :( Sigh. Why is Uni so stressful. I am so tired of this lifestyle, the workload just never gets any lesser. And worries never ease. :( On the hind side, I do have something to look forward to really soon. Hehehe. Can't wait.

Look at the stars, look how they shine for you.

2011-09-07T12:39:00.001+08:00

A few pictures from last week! I haven't been dutifully blogging, i will get back to the blog-o-sphere soon once I get rid of the lazy streak that has stuck by me ever since I've adapted to the ever slow moving Perth. Haha. And i know I'm not supposed to count down but... I CAN'T HELP IT. Hahaha. Okay I'm going to Reid Library to study after dinner, the weekends have officially begun! But this weekend would be wasted by all the revision I gotta do for next week's tests. Bah :(

Jean turns 21 :)

2011-09-03T22:32:00.000+08:00

My hair felt exceptionally smooth today so I decided to snap a few shots of myself after I blew dry my locks. Plus the filled-with-love bubble tea that Jo got for me, I honestly feel very happy whenever I drink bubble tea here even though it costs me $5 AUD just to have one miserable cup but ohwells... I did my notes today at Reid Library with Aline and I guess it was quite productive even though we did take a lunch break of more than an hour @ Broadway. I had Pad Thai :> Eating out here can be really costly, a plate of chicken rice is around $9 AUD so it's about... $12 SGD? Haha. And that's the approximate price of horfun, noodles, rice, etc outside. Eating in @ Trinity is a lot better probably cause I've already paid for the lodging and meals here. Haha. But sometimes... It's nice to eat outside once in awhile.

Shall do a little post about Jean's 21st Birthday!

So my dear roomie next door turned 21 on 31st of August! I don't have pictures from the abrupt surprise that the rest sprung on her but it was pretty epic, she totally didn't guess that all of them were gonna surprise her at midnight. It's been great having you next door, we had great times together and i really enjoy spending time in your company :) Stay bubbly, stay cheery and don't lose that smile. I figure we would prolly not be in such close proximity next semester so I'm glad we are neighbours this semester. Enjoy your last night in Singapore, you're such a lucky girl - 3 celebrations for your 21st! I hope you're enjoying yourself, Jean. And you didn't turn off your lights when you left for S'pore, I hope your heater is off or else the room's gonna be an oven when you arrive back tomorrow. Haha. Okay la... Love you very much, look forward to your return woman! xoxoxo.

We had italian food @ Gucce in Applecross to celebrate Jean turning 21! It was a super chilly night and I was only in a thin & sheer blazer + bandage skirt, I always get cold so easily. /: We were running a little late when Jean and I left trinity in her car, she drove to pick Weiwen and Yang up first before we went there using the GPS. Haha. Jon changed the reservation timing so we were in time! Phew. Haha. There was... Jean, Yang, Weiwen, Menghan, Jon, Eloise, Justin and I present for Jean's dinner that night. And the food there was pretty good too, it was recommended by I-can't-remember-who's friend. More pictures of what all of us ate are on facebook. I figured I shouldn't waste too much space with food pictures. Justin took really nice photos of the individual dishes though! Made them look super mouthwatering. We ended the dinner with desserts, I shared with the Queer King - Jon and I can't remember the name of the dessert we ordered but it's similar to creme brulee, and it was super delish! The sticky date pudding was even nicer ^^

Took a couple of group + individual shots outside in the cold with the birthday girl before we decided that it's high time we proceeded with the rest of the night's plan. The initial plan was to have pre-drinks @ Weiwen's before we headed down to club. But we met with a crisis right smack in the middle of the super dark suburbs. The suburbs aren't like Singapore, cause there are barely any street lamps here and it gets really dark and quiet here so it can be pretty dangerous to walk outside alone once the night falls. More often than not, I would find myself speed walking if I am alone in small roads. It gets better when you reach the main road because there are more cars. I was in Jean's car when Menghan's car met with a crisis, the tyres on the left side were totally gone. We spent an hour odd waiting in some ulu place which we didn't recognize till the toll truck came. Kim came to join us too, so did Jo and Za. Everything else fell in place, pre-drinks in a jiffy and we partied the rest of the night @ Paramount. :)

Okay, I have procrastinated for hours already. I should get to my work before I get too sleepy. Another day spent at Reid tomorrow. I have absolutely no life because Uni is so stressful, the workload gets heavier and heavier and I never go a day without thinking about what's awaiting me when I sit myself on my table to finish up what's overdue from the previous week(s). I have 2 more weeks to Mid-Sems somemore! Plus projects, essays, etc. I feel the heat already :( I honestly can't wait to be free from all of this, but I guess it's the workload that keeps me busy and keeps the days from going too slowly. I gotta run already, goodbye and have a good weekend everyone! Tbh, I kinda... miss the weekends I would spend @ Zouk. Can't wait to club with everyone I miss back in S'pore when I return. ^^

Long and Arduous.

2011-09-02T00:55:00.003+08:00

I took this from my own tumblr: Envy clenched the heart today, a cold feeling ran down inside - I couldn’t comprehend the entire emotion, I think it was a mixture of many. I wish I was the one who was on board the plane now, I’d blast homecoming songs and attempt to curb my excitement by sleeping the time away. And after speed walking out the plane, I’d run for the customs. As I await my luggages I would be eagerly searching for your face at the arrival hall. Dilated pupils, pounding heart. I would wear the biggest smile I’ve ever had in months. I don’t think anyone can ever understand how I feel at this point in time, unless they have done the whole distance thing before, the miles are just too torturous. And noone would be able to understand, how it feels when it’s not just today or tomorrow that you can’t see him, but its many months later after the treacherous nights spent thinking, wishing and hoping for that day to come. No one.

Hello September, I've been waiting for you.

Hammy.

2011-08-30T00:12:00.000+08:00

I get easily distracted, by a strand of hair on the table, by my pink and welcoming comforters, by my handphone, by tumblr, by everything that's existent around me... But when I sink into an all-time low, nothing can ever seem to distract me from it. You see, I don't think I can ever get rid of it and on the other hand, I dread feeling the sink in my heart and the pressing of emotions against my chest. It's a literal ache that can be felt, whenever I breathe in deep and suck in reality into my lungs. Sometimes, it's controllable and sometimes i just want to succumb to it. It's not like it's a daily affair, but it happens more frequently than I'd like for it to. I always felt that I'm a perpetually depressed person, I can't make my day turn around once it's down, and more often than not, my emotions get the better of me. So there are some days I'm just not okay, and perhaps everyone's right... I have to accept that it's fine to not be okay.

It's been a little over a month to date, and apart from the assignments that have been piling up and the many questions i have in my head with regards to all the work that I've been doing.. I guess Perth's been treating me okay. And I honestly think that this is yet another distraction because I still have not started on my WR essay. And it's due on Thursday, damn it. I can no longer find the words to describe how I feel but I guess it's simple if I just summarise it in 3 words. I miss Jerrold. I miss him so much sometimes, and it doesn't help that I am not particularly used to this whole distance thing. Everyone says it would get better, and some days they are fine whereas bad days, they suck. I work hard to hang in there but there are moments when I get tired of having to be this way. So i hide. Then again, I don't quite know what's the easiest way to counter this. The only thing I know is that I can't wait to the last week of September. I never looked forward to something so much before.

Tumblr.

2011-08-27T16:41:00.001+08:00

Yep, I do have a Tumblr Account. I blurred the address out though. Haha. It's not like there are secrets there, on the contrary it's pretty public and it just contains a collection of photos and quotes that I reblog incessantly from other people when I have the time to visit the site. But then again, I didn't make it a public spot as I like to think that apart from this site that really does not have any privacy at all... I actually do have a haven that is more hush-hush. But I do let any friends know of it if they are curious about what I reblog, so feel free to ask me. What I actually wanted to share was the ultra pretty dashboard background and icons that are now installed! Seriously, look at the icons~ Hehe. And look @ Jer! Hahaha. I melted when I saw him like that. Please excuse me. Haha. Okay you know I really don't know why I am so unmotivated, need to do my work now goodbye.

Busy busy bumblebee.

2011-08-27T14:34:00.002+08:00

It's been yet another busy week, hence the lack of updates.
I should get used to the fact that I wouldn't be able to blog as regularly as I did before.

I have a little less than a month left before Mid-Sem break. But the next few weeks are mad jammed with so much to do, i.e tests assignments deadlines projects. Thinking of it makes me feel a little breathless. I'll try and get the photos from yesterday and the entire week up soon, my legs are still aching from dancing in heels @ Paramount. It didn't help that there were smashed bottles on the floor i think, so shards of glass were indented in my wedges. No wonder it was so painful and we danced the entire night. Haha. AND it was 5 degrees yesterday when we were stuck in the suburbs before pre-drinks. Hahahaha. Exciting night yesterday. I'll update soon. My essays are calling for my attention, have a good weekend y'all. :)

I think of you at different moments in my every day routine, when I wish that you were there to see or feel what I'm going through. Then there are times when I feel a little emptier, a little less myself and I'd think of how with you i wouldn't be like that. I have a penchant for slow songs with meaningful lyrics, maybe that's how they always hit home like a bull's eye. I look forward to seeing you soon.

Today I don't feel like doing anything.

2011-08-21T18:11:00.000+08:00

With an essay due in 10 days that I haven't begun drafting for, my mind's in shambles together with the unformed ideas that are dancing in halves and quarters in my thoughts. Can't seem to form a coherent point without being distracted by everything else in my room, I guess I should prolly head to the Resource Centre to study or smtg but I still prefer the comfort of my little crib. Adding to the workload are other units, which haven't seemed as hefty yet apart from Statistics which gives me a daily headache. But for tonight, I'd have to dedicate all my time to draft out all my thoughts for the M&O essay. I can't wait for September to come and then subsequently, the end of September. So please pardon me for the lack of updates, I myself feel a little odd not blogging as much as before. But I suppose it was only a regular routine since I had such a lengthy holiday, with no work and all play. It was fun when it lasted but life has got to move on, mine's been on a race as of late as a result of Uni.

It's only when I came abroad that I truly know who are the ones who really care enough about me to bother keeping in touch with me, skyping with me, texting/what'sapping/bbm-ing on a frequent basis and of course, those who keep up with me through regular checks done on Facebook (which is a very ingenious creation I must say). This is when I know who really matters, who are the friends who are gonna stick by me even though we are leading separate lives elsewhere. It's heartening :> So thankyou, if any of yall are reading this ^^ And of course there are more friends that I'm thankful for having, apart from Kim & the Superstars above. These were photos that I played around with lately, hence the different hues, tones and background. I've only about 20minutes left to stare at my blank piece of brainstorming paper before I head down for dinner. It's a brand new week tomorrow, can't wait to get past Monday first and foremost. Monday bluessss /: Allright, I'm off. Bye!

Surreal.

2011-08-18T22:51:00.000+08:00

Everything still feels so unreal. And I can't believe it's like 90% or so confirmed? Even though it's only for a week but... (screams) Can't wait for the end of September. OHYEAH~ ^^

School's been super busy, it's a little hard to catch up at times because Uni life is so different from Poly. The education system in Singapore spoon feeds us since young, jamming us with information which we regurgitate when exams arrive. Whereas it's a whole new different experience here, where this sort of theory doesn't apply and independent studying is required. No guidance, no help, just me on my own. Like being thrown into the wild, no negotiations on what I'm given as rations for survival. Exciting I suppose, a little hard to accept at first but I'm getting accustomed to it! Living and studying abroad is honestly, an eye opener thus far. And it has only just begun. Oh anyway... thankfully thursday is almost over. I don't even know what I have installed for the weekend as yet! But I do know who I'd be spending it with, ^^ I'm nursing a bit of a flu and a sorethroat, I shall ring my boyfriendddd and get some rest at the same time. :> Have a good weekend everyone, its Friday tomorrow!

8th.

2011-08-16T00:35:00.028+08:00

The pain from missing someone can't be measured in any way, nor in any context. So what constitutes to missing someone. To me - It's when I am staring at him on the pixelated Skype screen, and I see how he feels so near when he's in fact... Really far. When I relate my day to day stories to him and I wish right there right now that he's with me. That when at night, I entertain the craziest thoughts that can ever materialize from thin air, he would be able to tell me that it's gonna be okay. The early nights can drive me up the wall, the crossing out of days on the calender on my wall seems to be a lengthy and endless procedure. And everyday when he's the first thing that enters my mind right after I turn off my alarm, when every night he's the last person on my mind before I get engulfed by sleep... I miss him.

Perhaps one day in future when I look back on my days in UWA, I may chide myself for being a silly lass years ago, for tearing for feeling for experiencing. But the present's what makes all these emotions so very real, hence I'm living in today. I'm certain that it would also morph me into the person I would become in future. And today, in this present time, my heart's telling me the same thing it has been feeling the past 1 month that I've been here. I feel cracked. Sure, everything's fine and dandy here and the settling in process is quickly leaning towards familiarity and habit. But well... it ain't the same. And it's as though it wouldn't ever be. I think I really ought to work on getting myself more immersed in my school work, maybe only then will time pass faster. And perhaps only then, I would find myself in a pleasant state of mind when I'm going home. Going home to Jer.

Happy Monthsary, Baby.

I love you very much :B :) :> :D I'll be seeing you soon, love.

From the window, till the wall.

2011-08-15T21:26:00.000+08:00

The rest of the photos are taken horizontally and I don't like to upload horizontal photos here, it makes my blog post layout look a little disoriented. Or maybe it's just me. It was Christmas in August @ Trinity Residential College! Which I think I mentioned in the last post. I have been a little lazy to blog, the winter makes me a really lethargic person. Anyway, winters also mean that nightfall comes really quickly so it's already really dark by 6pm? Hence, meal times are always back at Trinity since the amount the residents pay here covers all meals here too. Its only on occasions like weekends or Friday nights that we would venture out... Like on Friday when we went for dimsum! Pictures below.

So Jo, Val, Tiff, Mian, Ys and I went out on a... Friday after they were done with lessons. I don't have school on Fridays, ohyeah~~ Hahaha. We had one of our personal best lunches to date. The dimsum we ordered seemed really alot but in the end, it was just sufficient to make us feel full and not too bloated. Okay I felt really bloated after that but walking made it better. And there it's late night shopping till 9pm! That's the latest shops are opened to, and I think it's only on Fri & Sat? Haha. And we chanced upon the reject shop which the guys already knew about. SO MANY THINGS! Haha. I felt like I stumbled onto a treasure place, we spent so much time in there just looking around. It's not like the goods are faulty, just that the appearance may not match the ideal look? It's basically a shop that sells really cheap stuff ^^v We had late dinner @ Val's before walking back home.

But for Jo and I, the night didn't quite end there. Pre-drinking next door at Jean's room before we headed out. First clubbing experience in Perth! And whilst we were posing for the group photos above, it was around 8 to 9 degrees that night, where we were in the cold waiting for our cabs. Haha. My knees were buckling the whole time when we waited for a cab back to Trinity later that night after the night was over @ 5ish. We went to Dragonfly that night! I suppose it was quite a good night? Saw many familiar faces that night tho, cause Dragonfly's only opened once a month i think. Haha. But the Djs kept repeating a particular song when Jo, Jon and I were on the dancefloor. I sang it to annoy 'em after that, hahahaha. Okay I gotta run and take a phonecall, have a good week all!

Vanyo :)

2011-08-13T17:00:00.001+08:00

Happy 21st, Bfried! I hope you enjoy this very special day and I wanted you to know that I am really very grateful that we have stayed close since Sports Camp'09 until now. I can't wait to spend time with you once I get back to S'pore so meanwhile, your present would have to wait till I get back. Hehe. Have a great one, we'll catch up soon or skype/facetime soon k. You better add me, you haven't done so till now! Pfftsk. Hahaha okay la, i love you xxxx :)

Blood rushed.

2011-08-11T12:02:00.001+08:00

Beautiful scenery as we girls ran down Mounts Bay road for a late morning run/jog. Stumbled onto a hut out in the ocean so we ventured towards it with stealthy movements. I was more concerned about whether I would fall like a klutz into the sea. But phew, I was still dry when we made our way back. Jogging here is really unlike running in Singapore. My ears were really red after running a distance because of the cold wind that beat relentlessly on it. Something you'd never get back in Sunny Singapore. The weather has been plunging in the mornings and late nights. But well, nothing that is untolerable thus far ^^ Hehe. Oh and there was a formal dinner last night in Hall, a event known as 'Christmas in August' so I guess its pretty self explanatory. But it was good fun, talking to everyone around and taking pictures (even though I didn't take many.. HAHA)

Haiiiii ^^ Sending my love to everyone in Singapore that I miss dearly. Please pardon my unphotogenic side in the photo, I feel like a duckling next to swans at times. Haha. Today marks the last school day of the week for me, as I have fridays off :) One more lecture later at 3pm and I'm done! Haha. And I'm back in my room early, doing some revision for Stats because I'm damn poor in all the summation, sample variance, yadayada stuff. How to score well like that :( It doesn't help that everyone else seems to get it 'cept for me and my slow brain. Bah. And I've procrastinated enough, gonna head back to my notes in a jiffy before I get even more distracted.

Just a glimpse of what I wake up to everyday in the first picture. Apart from the polaroids that are up on the top part which can be seen in the 2nd picture, I printed a couple of photos (in 1st photo) and decorated 'em before pasting them on the wall next to my bed. And i'm pretty satisfied with them! Hehe. But I haven't got the chance to print even more photos, which I want to but it's rather costly to do it here. Unless it's in bulk. :( My dorm room's pretty big actually, Jean and I got the corner rooms so it's rather spacious. And I've a few photo frames on my table, motivation to get me thru the day whenever I sit on the desk to do my work. Allright, gotta run. Back to stats! :( Have a good day all!

This hit my heart's core.

2011-08-09T23:57:00.000+08:00

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National Day.

2011-08-09T22:19:00.000+08:00

Happy 46th Birthday, Singapore.

Sending all my love from down under, I miss you so much.

It's really true that you don't know what you have until it's gone. I'm miles away from Home and it's when the realization is crystal clear. I was at the UWA Tavern just now, watching the NDP together with many of the other Singaporean Uni Students that were there for the same reason too. Everyone cheered when the President came on, screamed when the fireworks were released and clapped enthusiastically when it was all over. I couldn't help feeling little bouts of gloom that hit me as I gazed at the skyline of Singapore on screen. It screams familiarity, it echoes the word 'Home'. I have always been a patriot, I love Singapore to pieces. Even the little flaws it has, I love it for its strengths and weaknesses. And now when I'm far away from my comfort zone, it reaffirms the fact that Singapore will always be where I want to be. Where I want to live, grow and breathe in. I loathe hearing and seeing how people can harp on the smallest things in Singapore that they do not like. Society taught us to be gracious, I am grateful for everything I have back home that not anyone in the world could have. So Singapore, Happy Birthday. I hope you have a smooth sailing year ahead. And I look forward to seeing you again in December. Xxx.

Better.

2011-08-07T17:56:00.001+08:00

I watched my farewell videos again and this time, I didn't cry. :) I guess I'd say it's quite a feat, I cried like a baby when I first got hold of it. You could say I'm getting well adjusted to everything here, I have made friends and I am getting used to the lifestyle + food + people here. But there are of course times when I really miss Singapore like crazy but I know for sure that my time here would mould me into a different person in time to come. In the positive sense of course. I hope to return at the end of this journey as someone who has completed her 2 years here with hardwork and determination, someone who has gained unmeasurable experience from the time here, someone who has experienced living abroad on her own and finally, as someone wiser. But of course, that's still in time to come. I always preferred endings as compared to beginnings and the middle part of a journey. Perhaps it's because I have always looked forward to happy endings. :) I'm learning to live in the present and to let this ride take me along, so I'd learn also. Slowly. To enjoy the middle of this entire experience here.

It's a Sunday night and I'm sitting in Jo's room, using my Mac as she tackles her Financial Accounting (FA) tutes. I don't have anything to do :( At least not for this week, I think. I have been rechecking my WebCT but I don't see any work at all. I don't know anyone in any of my tutorial classes as I don't even know anyone who is doing the same specialization as I am, but anyway it would be a brand new week ahead. A brand new week of getting to know even more people and getting settled into the Uni culture here - Wish me luck! (Cross Fingers)

I have had a few friends ask me how I deal with having to live a continent away, thousands of miles from Jerrold. I don't really know the answer to this question, all I can say is that we are doing all we can to make this work out for us. Jer has always been patient and mild-tempered, we haven't had any major fights before and he's really understanding so the both of us are pretty rock steady. We make things work by keeping each other in the loop of what goes on daily, though I have prolly more stuff to say since I'm in a new environment. It helps that we are also in the same time zone, so it's easier to skype and stuff. Sometimes it gets hard cause it would suddenly dawn on me that he is so far away and I'd fall prey to the overwhelming emotions that would choke me from inside. It really feels suffocating sometimes, sometimes I don't even know where it comes from but it would just seize control of me. But it gets better, with good company and more homework to come that would keep me busy soon. I guess i'm surviving, not just barely like before, but this time with quite a steady footing. :) I'm off to dinner downstairs, Jake helped me get bubbletea from Perth City so I'm pretty psyched to drink it! YAY. Gotta run, bye!

Jo's Birthday in Perth!

2011-08-06T01:32:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Jo ^^

It was Jo's birthday yesterday and at the stroke of midnight, Adam Ys Mian Za and I surprised Jo at her room! Haha. But it was a little fail cause we were delayed, she had tons of people wishing her on skype and Za was bad at lying. Hahaha. 2nd part of her surprise was when I blindfolded her along Broadway to Val's house which was still a 15minutes walk from the main road. The girls were outside waiting with a cake, struggling to light the candles in this crazy 6degrees weather. We were all freezing till our teeth literally chattered, our bones really chilled 'to the bone' and our limbs shook when we were in the cold. But of course, I had myself to blame when I was only in thin leggings, a normal black dress and a cropped leather jacket. I nearly died.

The 2nd surprise was a homecooked meal since all of us missed food back home so much. It was such a satisfying dinner, full but contented feeling. Blisssss. We spent a little time chilling before walking back, braving the strong wind and icy chills. Jake and I collaborated via the phone and sprung Jo another surprise in the Robinsons room where everyone hid behind sofas and curtains to surprise Jo when she entered the room. Transformers 2 for the night! Hahaha. Hope you enjoyed your birthday, jo you duut. Haha. Even though we only knew each other for such a short period of time, I'm so glad I have you and Za at Trinity. What would i do without the both of you!! Haha.

Just a short update - I've been doing good, down under :) Choosing to move to Hall proved to be quite a good decision cause I got to know so many individuals here, of which I don't think I can remember everyone's names here but still.. Trinity feels more familiar now as days go by so all's well. Classes officially start next week as tutorials would finally be in session, which would mean that I would have to get past the daunting week of getting to know more new faces in class since I don't even know anyone whose in like 3 out of 4 of my tutorials? :S I do hope all goes well though. Firedrill @ 6am was such a terrible idea. It was freeeeeezing and we had to gather downstairs to get our attendance taken before running back to our rooms and going back to sleep. The temperature had been dropping to 6- 7 degrees at night and is around 15 to 17 degrees in the day time. Warmer if the sun rays are more glaring. STILL VERY COLD O: Allright, I'm getting really tired. I wonder if it's the winter because I get weary easily. Goodnight everyone, have a good weekend :>

Have a good day at work, Sillyb. I'm sending my love from down under,
takecare of yourself. You are always on my mind, twenty-four-seven. :)

Life in Perth!

2011-08-03T02:14:00.001+08:00

The 2 pictures right above this paragraph is my school -

University of Western Australia (UWA).

And it is absolutely beautiful, the old buildings have a lot of character and they are really stunning. They remind me, and many others who are here too, of Harry Potter's Hogwarts School. Haha. The Winthrop Hall where we did our enrollment and had O-week in also reminds me of the Great Hall in Hogwarts and so does the walkways. The Business Block is one of the newest blocks so it looks more modern in comparison to the ones at the front of the campus. Like I mentioned before, I arrived a week before Orientation Week and my parents accompanied me to get stuff and help me get settled into my residence at Trinity Hall. And it's also through dorm that I got to know a whole lot of people. ^^ And I am a little lazy to blog but the following pictures show a bit of what I have been doing the past few weeks and who has been in my company! But I have gotten a lot lazier here hence I haven't been blogging as frequently. Haha. School's started already anyway. And here are some snaps:

Perth City, Subiaco, Fremantle, Harbourtown.... I have pretty much covered Perth in less than a month. I have been shopping and browsing quite a fair bit too! But keeping my purchases under a tight reign. Skies are as dark as midnight back in Singapore here at 5plus in the evening so by then, I would usually be making my way back for meals at Trinity. And it's about 10 degrees (or even colder) to 19 degrees here, it gets colder at night especially when it starts pouring like crazy. The rain here is abrupt and comes in heavy masses, so violent that they blow your umbrellas upside down and when that happens... It is really not funny. Haha. The sun can get really glaring too, when it turns sunny.

Lectures have begun this week and I can't stop complaining about the insane hours I have as breaks in between lectures and tutes. But guess I am lucky to be staying at Hall cause then I wouldn't have to travel to and fro. However, the Business Block is the last block at the furthest end of campus hence a walk from Trinity to Business Block takes around 30minutes. Crazy right? Goodness. Been to Val and Tiffany's house yesterday with Jo and we spent a few hours watching Vampire Diaries. Everyday's eventful even though the days are short. We try to make it worthwhile when it lasts before school starts officially next week when tutorials are in full swing as well. I'm done skyping people for tonight, and my skype username's zhixianteo just in case any of you want to add me :B I gotta run, I'm feeling the exhaustion from having to wake up for 8am lectures the past 2 days so I am gonna sleep. Goodnight!

Oopsie.

2011-08-01T22:46:00.001+08:00

I have been too lazy to blog, HAHAHA.
Promise to blog soon, by tomorrow or the next! Stay tuned :)

I'll take a bullet for you when it comes to that.

2011-07-30T03:11:00.002+08:00

There are cold nights where all you can hear is the ticking of the clock and when the room seems to speak echoes to your mind, churning spiral thoughts as well as unnecessary overthinking. Then suddenly, realization takes place in a bullet shot... you are vulnerable.

There are certain individuals you are certain you want to be locked to for life, there are certain people who touch your heart in unimaginable ways and there are certain smiles you would do anything in the world to recreate. Perhaps experience in this field isn't something that I can boast of having, but I guess I have met my fair share of mistakes in these years, some serious and some not quite. Can't speak for the future but I do know that for now, we'd do everything we can to make this work.

One thing's for sure, I haven't met someone like him.

It's not Goodbye :)

2011-07-28T23:06:00.000+08:00

A little lazy to upload them all here, the rest of the photos which are mostly individuals are uploaded on Facebook. I took some time to get these photos up, looking at them makes me.... Think back. But I know everything's for the better here, for the future and for myself. :) And the week is slowly getting better too, I'm getting adapted slowly as time passes and well it's still too early to tell but I think I'll grow to love Perth soon. I'm still getting acquainted with it, :) So farrrrr, so gooood!

Anyway, it was a slightly teary affair for a few and of course... Me @ Terminal 3. But I guess I was already prepared that it would be a little hard to part with the sunny island that I've grown to love, for the next 2 years. Plus the family, the relatives/cousins, awesome friends.... Boyfriend. HAHA. Ohwells, I saw it coming since months back so this was just the actual scene that took place instead of the ones I conjured from pure imagination juices. I'll be home on holidays so that's not too bad i suppose :> I had so many food items from everyone that night... From TWG macaroons to home made cupcakes and tons of chocolates. And necessities also. Not to mention, I'm so thankful to all those who gave me sweet notes and messages as well as for the videos made by Char, Yongqiang and Weihao. :) Made me quite an emotional puppy but yet happy at the same time. What a weird combi. HAHA. Thankyou guys! Y'all are so sweet. Not to mention the mini surprises that appeared as well, (stares at Babypp and Peh) Hahaha. Well, it isn't Goodbye cause I'll be back :>

And of course, amidst everything that I have been doing here - I have had the best form of companionship as well. Though not physically but well... We'll make do ^^ Thankyou for your unwavering support and your many silly faces on Facetime. You're such a sweetheart. I have chicken rice craving, we shall go for the Maxwell one when I'm back in December! And I know it's a horribly unglam picture of you there but you said you didn't mind... HEHE. Jer and Mum went out for dinner yesterday and she took a picture of him devouring the molten lava chocolate cake... His favourite :> And it's really nice to see how they also BBM alot plus Mum visits him at work too. Heartening :) But still kinda makes me wish I was there too, fighting for a bite of the cake because I haven't tried it before :/ Ohwells. Hahaha. Chances are aplenty :) I spy someone calling me on Facetime, gotta run!

Be with you.

2011-07-25T19:06:00.003+08:00

I really wish you were here, I miss you so terribly.

First week in Perth.

2011-07-25T15:30:00.000+08:00

I'm in Perth! Hi everyone. Wish I had exciting stuff to blog about but there is really not much to say. The temperature down south ranges from like 10 degrees till 15 degrees? Gets a little colder at night when there's wind, like just now. My parents came down with me so they helped me get settled in, bought pillows comforter laundry basket padlocks hangers etc. Spent a whole sum of money just to make my room feel more lived in. Haha. I'll upload pictures once I get my lazy self to do so. I am even lazy to blog about the past week. It's just been filled with ups and downs and I am so thankful I have such loving parents that are willing to take so much time off just to see me settled here. I would never ask for better parents when I have the best. And I don't exaggerate, I always knew how lucky I was. Just that I got to know of it more now, when I am alone and abroad.

What kills is the distance. It never felt so hard, sometimes it aches like crazy. And the nights are hardest to go through when all that's dancing in my head are the times the both of us had spent together before departing. They are never enough. But he's been a real darling, encouraging and supporting me through everything. Skype's our only form of communication now, thankgod for it.

12 hours.

2011-07-17T13:03:00.004+08:00

I'm not fond of goodbyes, even though it isn't exactly permanent.

And so as I sit here with a pile of (somewhat organized) mess around me, I guess I have spent enough time visualizing what is to happen 12 hours from now. I know I prolly wouldn't get to see everyone that I would like to see, seeing how my flight is at quite an ungodly timing and how everyone else would be taken by school, work or NS. But I guess maybe this would be a better thing, save myself further embarrassment if I were to suddenly burst right infront of the departure gate. What an ugly sight it would be also. My musings as of late and for a couple of weeks running have centered around the same topic, and I myself have also gotten tired of the overthinking that I have been indulging. I even dream of what I think, I could see it in the images that dance in my head the instant I shut my eyes. It's tiring to the bone but it's coming to a stop tonight when the real deal takes place @ T3.

Yesterday, the two of us took a walk along this long stretch of path where the end and the sky meets. The wind beat on our senses mercilessly and it chills the bones at certain times, but it was the least of our concerns. Right there and then, we let the realization wash into us and whilst we discussed, we also took comfort. A few months back, I foresaw myself to be the stronger one. Yet, I guess I could never ever prepare myself for how the sudden thoughts would strike me at heart, where there's an ache that really can't be described. He stood there, being the one I could lean on. The positive and optimistic one, the realist in my little boy grew. I'm proud of him, from the bottom of my heart. And since this is just the beginning of a totally raw and new experience, I would say it isn't Goodbye. It's Hello. And for the many loved ones I'm leaving behind in Singapore, I'll be back. ^^

Flight's tonight. I still have a few places to go which I don't really know where for now. Plus i still have so much on my mind that's undone, urgh. But with all the worries aside, the Boyf's coming down to fetch me now in the Kitty Mobile. I don't quite know if the Kitty would see this but... Thankyou Kitty. For loaning him your car, and for being such a brother. If I were a Jurong boy, I would want you as my gay-best-friend-who-lives-in-the-same-block too. Just kidding ;) But I really do mean it, you are a great friend. Allright, I got to run along and get ready. Takecare everyone, I'll blog once I am able to do so :)

1 day left.

2011-07-16T14:29:00.004+08:00

I have a day left before I no longer get to see this silly face on an almost daily basis for the next few months to come - I guess the countdown's coming to an end, for now.

He couldn't get much sleep last night and whilst I was still in bed this morning, He was queueing at Mcdonald's. Armed with my favourite hotcakes with sausage, he appeared at my doorstep. With a goofy grin, like always. We talked and he helped me finish the hotcakes before he slowly dozed off on my bed. He sleeps with a slight grin, an almost angelic face though he's quite a devil when he's disturbing others. We are still young together and time honestly whizzes past when we spend quality time in each other's company. It doesn't quite matter if we are out exploring new cafe locations or if we are laughing at tumblr faces or at silly videos, I daresay he keeps me entertained and we are tickled pink when we are together. Hence, having to undertake the next phase of my journey without having the constant burst of sunshine trailing next to me is something that I am still not used to yet. I don't think I can ever be ready, but I'm prepared for the bruises and wounds before I adjust right into the new lifestyle that awaits me.

❤ ❤ ❤

I had the most pleasant surprise, it made me grin like a cheshire cat whilst trying hard not to be an emotional wrat. To be honest, I touch my heart - I don't need expensive gifts, I don't really need gifts at all. I think the little moments spent together in place of material possessions that fit into an entire puzzle is engraved deep in the depths of my memories and heart. Those are priceless, I would say. But thankyou baby, for the prettiest and sweetest gift ever :) It's funny how I have other more costly items as well but each of them contain different meanings and were from different special people that belong in my life then and now, and this new gift would also have a separate story. Thankyou, and I love you. I guess it's too late to say you really didn't have to. You are the sweetest, sleepyhead.

Last Week - At a glance.

2011-07-15T01:11:00.002+08:00

There is just TOO much to blog about, and I have absolutely NO time to do a decent post. So I'm rolling the photographs instead of the lengthy passages of text after text, Enjoy!

Just a series of short descriptions,

my eyes are shutting off on their own accord already.

I had a farewell picnic specially planned for me - My very own Flowery Farewell.
I clubbed with Jer, Kit, Steven, Joel, Ser, Kang, Kd on Wednesday Night.
Dinner Gathering with the Khoos where they bullied Jer too.
Family Dinner the next day before Jer fetched me to his friend's Birthday.
Supper with the BS gang before chilling at Marina Barrage, #2 Cloudwatching Session.
Supper with the BIT boys @ Swee Choon (again that week). I finally got to see Hweesheng and Ben on one of their bookout weekends! Haha.
Dessert with Xenia on a Friday and she got me the cutest hat everrrrrr. :>
Dinner with Wenqi on a Monday, asian cuisine's always the best.

4 days.

2011-07-13T01:46:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I just want to shut the world out, lock myself in the safety of my house and spend some quality time alone. I may not seem like it but I do get homesick, even when I am on trips abroad with my family. It's funny how the mere thought of not being able to sleep in my own bed can make me tears. I am an emotional basketcase lately. Songs, Images, Thoughts - You name it. I am a tap of gushing water, I cannot seem to stop. I try to look at it with logic, that the time spent abroad is minimal and at least I am going to be able to fly back half-annually but it does not make all of these any easier. It does not stop me from feeling blue that my time is slowly ticking by. And there's this heavy feeling inside that I can't get rid, it just hangs there like a dead weight. It reminds me of the many emotions I wish I was incapable of feeling at this point of time. Like I say, I am an wreck when it comes to emotions.

I am not ready, I think I wouldn't ever be until I'm thrown into the sea, where I have to swim to survive. I'm used to seeing the Boyf on a regular basis, to think that I wouldn't be able to do so just kinds... kills me. And the many little details that I shan't share since it's personal and it would make this post even sadder than it really is. It's just really hard that he has to be the strong one when deep down, he's feeling every bit the same emotions that I am. Sometimes, I can't even sleep cause in my head, I'm just counting the hours till day break begins. And I am just praying and hoping... That it is just the leaving part that would be so difficult to stomach. I think i should catch some shut eye now, and put all these ghosts of thoughts to peace before I go crazy. Goodnight.

Cloudwatchers!

2011-07-09T16:51:00.000+08:00

And this was taken last weekend, when the IBSM bunch met up. They organized a farewell dinner for me before I depart. So sweet ^^ And I actually have alot to blog about but I haven't been able to find the time to do so. Am only updating now because my nails are still semi-wet (DIY cause I can't find the time to go for a mani/pedi these weeks /:) and I only have a while to do up a short one before my next bunch of visitors arrive for dinner at my place for the 2nd day running. I was so tired that I slept till 3pm today! That's also because I got back at 4plus but that's beside the point. Haha.

Dinner was at Modesto's! Jer was with us also but he left later on. Dinner was mega filling even for some of the boys. Haha. And then we set off in 3 different cars that were coincidentally, the same colour. Salted Caramel for dessert! I only tried it once and I was in love :> Again, we split into 2 tables because it was mad packed on a Saturday night. They ran out of the flavours that I wanted, major bummer :( Chilled till late @ Henderson Waves where we made fun of Melvin, got disturbed by his pervertic antics, laughed at good ol' times, talked about growing up, lament on time past and everything under the moon and stars. Not to mention, we started the first session of Cloudwatching. It became an amusing affair after a while when we tried to spot each other's discoveries. Kinda miss the times we spent in Vietnam, it was a blassssst. Haha. Eugene offered to walk me to my doorstep after Norman dropped me off. So sweet! But it wasn't necessary so the rabbit dropped us off respectively. Brian and Khaikit weren't there else our IBSM clique would be complete. But I'm seeing Brian this coming week so yay :>

I met up with so many faces these past weeks but yet still can't find the time to meet everyone I wanna see before I go. Then again, I would be back before you know it so I figure, it isn't too bad. I met the BS gang, Dearest, Xenia, Jurong Boys + Bkk Boys etc and I-can't-remember-who-else this week so I have photos that I haven't uploaded till now. Bah. I really need more time. I haven't even packed much of my belongings!! :( Allright, it's time for me to change and prepare for family dinner gathering + Jer's friend's birthday BBQ + Supper with the BIT people tonight. B.U.S.Y :( K Bye!

13 left.

2011-07-06T00:21:00.001+08:00

My neigbours think I'm crazy, but they don't understand.

You're all I have, You're all I have.

He has a scent that no perfume could ever replicate, an amazingly wide grin that I can find in no other and deranged dance movements that noone can ever mimick. We were walking back to my place, singing songs from The Click 5 and Mcfly out loud - noone else existed in the distance we covered and it was just the sound of us laughing as we tried hard to remember the lyrics to the oldschool songs, just the both of us giggling as we sung along to the cliche lyrics. Then I tried to swing him around without warning, in an attempt to tickle him unsuspectingly - He jumps away in time, in a awkward duck-like position that makes me chuckle out loud in the silent night. Sometimes we run around as though we are kids at a playground, our thoughts of the future lost in the breeze. Today, I laughed at him when I beat him at ascending a flight of stairs as he slouches in a comical manner, panting and he tries to squeeze me in the tightest embrace and all I would do is scoff at his lack of strength. It's really quite tight actually, to be honest. I try not to think of how all these could only be done now before we lose the moment and the chance. But sometimes it creeps up like a unsuspecting shadow, sometimes it wraps like a cloak around your heart. Painful, I would say. But I figure it's high time I get used to the pain.

Why does tonight, have to end? Why don't we hit restart,
and pause it at our favorite parts.
We'll skip the goodbyes. if i had it my way,
i'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and i.

Skypark.

2011-07-04T11:16:00.003+08:00

HOLLA, GOOD MONDAY MORNING :>

Photo taken on Saturday when we were at MBS with my family. I feel like a busy busy bumblebee... My entire week ahead is more or less, PACKED. And I'm trying to slot in next week without jamming it too much so that I still have time to pack and settle last minute Uni stuff (hopefully there isn't any that crops up at the last minute). Plus shopping for certain necessities, apart from the basic toiletries and health stuff which have already been settled. Allright, I'm gonna pop by the kitchen right after this - Brunch with the boyfriend in a bit!

14 left.

2011-07-04T03:31:00.009+08:00

I edited the previous post because I missed out on one portion. :( But it's settled now.
I am feeling really tired. I have been out all day today! I had the Pre-Departure briefing in the afternoon today and paying close attention to every word the speakers said was tiring, I had to do so for a full 2 hours! I just got home from meeting Valerie and Kim after meeting Bong for dinner + seeing Haz & Joel as well. Then rushing back as Kim just reached my place and was waiting to pick me up. Haha. It's currently 3.25am now, (yawns). The rest of the week's pretty filled for me and I still haven't packed apart from stuffing a few winter coats and jeans into my luggage. Need to start early as I am packing for like around 5months at a go? Some deep thinking's needed in the entire process. My eyes are burning a little now, as though shutting them would feel like acid just oozed out of my tear ducts. So I figure it's a sign that I should hit the sack. Goodnight guys.

Bye June, Hello July!

2011-07-02T01:57:00.001+08:00

I have been really quite busy - meeting up with everyone every day or two and struggling to squeeze more meetings in my last 2 weeks back home. The following photos were only taken during the last few days of June! Pity that I didn't get to snap even more. The rest of the photos are on Facebook actually, my eyes are a little tired so I'll try to make this less painful for all of your eyes - by making the posts a little less wordy. I'll do my best, no promises!

Tea with the Bbgs on a Sunny Afternoon in the Northern part of Sunny Singapore :> It was a fulfilling afternoon spent with S, J and R babbling on the latest gossips, rattling about the most recent updates and just.... indulging in idle chit chatting. Always fun to hear from these girls. Plus Serene and I also shared some stories which were rather old news to her I suppose, seeing how it used to be rather widespread. Teehee. Joyce also updated me on her life when we spent time after that together. We even managed to surprise Jer who was at work! Haha. Just 4 words from me - Stay Happy, my dear. Not hard, definitely achievable! Rach's the one i miss like crazy though, her crazy antics always make me burst into laughter. Ultra cute!!! ^^ We took even more photos after our tea session and Rach had to leave us :( So Joyce, Serene and I paid a visit to Salted Caramel! I wouldn't mind going back for second rounds, the icecream's really quite delish :) Loved the Horlicks Tim Tam flavour.

And I am a terrible friend because I totally missed out on Dearest when she was one of the first ones I remembered to blog about. THIS IS TERRIBLE. So I am editing this post and slotting this part in because she is part of the lovely friends I met in the last few days of June. It was just chilling over Starbucks for the both of us and I am so glad that even though we kinda drifted the last few semesters, we could still yak away like before. Back when we used to go back and head to school today, we covered everything in our respective lives with each other from start till end. And well so far? Nothing's changed. I love her super much, and I'd be seeing her again before i fly so... Yeepee :>

Jiarong, Char, Yexun and I spent a healthy night without partying and alcohol by just sitting around, messing around with photobooth and talking. It helped that Jiarong lived next block and Yexun just 3 stops away. Poor Char had to cab back alone! But I trust that nothing would have happened to her, she would cuff anyone if they disturbed her. But it was really sweet of 'em to come over! Hehe. Not to mention how the boys made Char and I giggle like crazy when they were all gay in front of the camera. Think... Flowers, Flower Hairbands, Pink Clips and Priceless Expressions. Classic ^^

Partner :) Whom I finally got to meet after such a long time. Our conflicting schedules has always been a burden. We had a simple lunch @ Ion before walking around. She looped me in on her stories and happenings whilst I gave her a few pieces of advices of my own. Didn't get to spend as much time as I wanted to with her as I had another dinner with Yewt & his family so I had to rush off. I am still glad Peh and I got to see each other, funny how we were both from the same secondary school but we didn't talk till we got to know each other during Year 1 Sem 1. Also because she's a year older so we didn't quite get the chance also. But look where it brought us today :>

Babycakessssssss. One of my favourite faces! I was so psyched when I saw her. Sydney took her away from me, pfftsk. So Keem, Lary and I had supper @ Chomps before Lary went off and the both of us drove off elsewhere to chill. I settled my green tea latte craving and we headed West, where it's familiar territory to kill time. It's been years and we're still close. Funny how so many people in school used to think we were an item back in Sec 2. -.- That night, we dug stories of the past just to poke fun at each other. She's a pain but she's a kind of pain I'd like to have around since I don't see her often. And now that I'm gonna be heading to Perth, I do hope I'll get to see her when she flies down to meet Zhiyi and the rest of her friends. I miss how we spent every other day together, those times whizzed past a tad too fast right after she transferred out of STC. But we are still tight! ^^v Hehe. And she's still the same irritating girl who annoys me and insists on calling me 'zhi'. I think Fer does so too and quite a few of my primary school friends as well. I prefer 'Xian'. Everyone else around me seems to call me that now.

Dinner with the Cuzs! Dinner that night was @ Pique Nique. Calvin was so confident when he pronounced it as 'Peekay Neekay'. HAHAHA what a joke. And he's in UOL now so I asked him if he has seen certain faces, all he has to say is that the girls all look the same so they are all Janes to him. It made me a little amused actually. Jane?! HAHA. But what he says is quite true actually, there are many girls in my age range who do look the same. Some look like photocopies, swear. And I always seem to find someone who look like someone else I know outside or smtg, it's a little perplexing. You can find most of these twins/triplets/etc at fleas, I would always say. Haha. And I have a term for them, I shall keep my mouth sealed. ;) Everyone wants to look different but they all end up looking the same. Its ironic. I for one, wouldn't want to dress to blend in. It's very typical. Anyway, dessert was @ EWF. The nutella tart was so awesomeeeeeee. (droolworthy) Everyone should try it if you happen to dine there, especially so if you have a sweet tooth!

With my Superstars! And Jer too, my own brand of sunshine :) Dinner was at IKEA and then we caught Your Highness after chilling at Artease with bubbletea. Super funny show, in my opinion plus the raunchy jokes made me laugh like crazy in the theatre. Quite a worthy show to watch if you like this kind of strong and crude sexual humor. Dj's car was attacked by birds who decided to leave the remnants of their droppings everywhere so we went for a car wash whilst dancing like kooky tards in the car. It was a hell of a night! We had videos to show that we look like half-assed stoned idiots when we were really just high on laughter and spanking-good company. The videos did our looney facial expressions injustice, I really thought we would look more sane than that but apparently not. Spent the rest of the night @ Starbucks till the clock hit 4am. Then 6 sleepyfaces proceeded home.

My smartypants Weiwei is back from London~ And I was so surprised to see her at dinner when we went to St James Food Republic Beer Garden. Jer accompanied me there after the both of us kept Zhixin company during the idare meeting. Got to see Sam, Yexun, Lance and Jesslyn! Lance is the same, still a pain and a royally big swollen pain actually. I miss Idare. After seeing how crazily high this batch of Year 1s are like, I really missed Idare. Having gone for 3 camps, it's tough to just let go. Like I said before, it was really akin to a Family. A huge one where everyone was equal. If I had counted the 2 other idare camps I was supposed to go as well as an SF and SSF respectively, it would hit a record of 5 for me. That is insane, I think 3 is quite a feat already! Hahaha.

Then there's the Boyfee :D Whom I have been seeing every other day or so since I think I have reason to be a little selfish, I wouldn't be able to do so once the 18th of July whizzes by and sweeps me away in it's high speed chase. But every day's a happy day with him! He does the darnest things and he has the MOST goofy smile whenever I see him. IT IS SO CUTE HAHAHAHAHA. Okay I should shut up. Plus he likes to do little dances in front of me when I least expect it. But when I request for one, he would suddenly resemble a block of wood. Bah. Element of surprise maybe? :> Not to mention the hamster that he seems to resemble nowadays, I can almost hear his protests sounding out right now if he is reading this. What can I say? I've grown to be more reliant on the many concoctions of emotions that he has conjured for me whenever I spent time in his company. I don't quite know what to expect when I start to spend days, weeks and months without being able to see him in front of me, goofying off and just being himself. But hey, there's not much time left to brood. So I really shouldn't do this. Gonna be spending the day tomorrow at MBS skypark with the Family + Jer! Goodnight :)

See you in the morning, Boyfriend :)

2011-06-30T00:01:00.000+08:00

There's a piece of you that's here with me,

It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see

When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by,

I can make believe, that you're here - Tonight.

He says everything I need to hear and it's like,

I couldn't ask for anything better.

Jolly June!

2011-06-29T23:08:00.000+08:00

June has been a really jolly month! Even though my departure is fast approaching, I still have many people that I haven't met. And farewell dinners unplanned, I still don't quite know how it works. :( And time is running out fasssst. The picture above makes Serene, Rach and I look absolutely berserk but the day spent with them was a gleeful one! I'll update once I get my June album up on Facebook. I barely had much sleep last night before I had to get up and head back to school today. I even met Yexun and the rest even though Josh overslept -.- So I'm gonna be retiring early into the comfort of my own bed instead of partying with the Bkk girls. My throat's hurting like a bitch, (growls) Bye!

Inner Peace.

2011-06-29T22:52:00.002+08:00

It isn't a secret but I've related the same story far too many times and I have seen similar reactions on many of these faces. Most are indignant, some angry and some pissed off. In my entire life, I have never hated someone as much as I have hated this person. Quite a feat huh, someone messed with the wrong girl. No prizes for the correct answer. And of course, it helps when everyone around helps in making this thing a breeze. That's of course, the friends who have stood by me :) No matter close or not. It's reassuring to feel something apart from the loathing, to actually put down everything despite being short-changed from the start. It was never easy and it was so tempting to agree to many of the fierce yet steady requests (till now) of loaning their hands and fists but I learnt that there was a better way to ride past all these. Because there's also the magnanimous boyfriend, who never bothered with anything since he let it all go. Whom everyone supported when this entire thing was exposed - because he was and still is the nicest boyfriend one can ever have. I've a thing or two to learn from him :)

I did see somewhere that 'hating someone is easy but letting go of the hate is difficult'. And though it took some time but it's still the reactions of many who did the spottings and how they joked about the entire thing, that made it so much funnier than it really is. :B I've always believed in Karma, so I'm pretty sure it would be lurking around the corner once it's time for one to pay their dues. Afterall, it takes two hands to clap, for a wrong deed to be performed and what goes around, does come around eventually even if it may take time for things to take place. And before I launch into one of my darker thoughts, I probably should end here. Letting go was a struggle but was attainable, and the scent of it is honey sweet :) Inner peace.... (does the kungfu panda inner peace pose and series of movements) ^^

Feifei's new friend.

2011-06-28T00:42:00.000+08:00

Meet Baibai, the #2 addition to my family. B's present to me! Hehe ^^ :> Have been a little too busy to update, with all the meetups as of late. But will do so soon this week! :)

Very Cliche - Boyfee.

2011-06-24T13:50:00.000+08:00

He makes me happy. The kind of happiness that could only come from being contented with everything you have. When you wake up daily and a smile graces your face when you read your morning texts from him, when you go to sleep with a goofy grin because he uttered something really sweet before you bid goodnights. Or when you spend nights debating on whose to hang up first, who loves the other more. The kind of feeling that gives you that tickling sensation in your stomach, shivers up your spine and hearts in your eyes. When a song that belongs to both of you plays and all you want to do is dance around in your room alone, looking entirely moronic. When the both of you can spend afternoons lying side by side, staring at each other; slow smiles, steady breaths, stealthy gazes. When stupid things like shooting at each other with fake handguns and acting dead, dancing next to each other making silly movements in the club and even singing wrong lyrics with confident voices seem au natural, very much at home.

I feel endless emotions and indescribable feelings towards just... One person. Most importantly, he made me a different person. He made me a happier person. Which I figure, everyone can tell. I don't know if it's how he always has a ready smile for me, how he never seems to get angry with me - not even once, or if its's how he is always cheery and singing when he's with me or whether it's when he would do anything in the world - just to make me laugh. Or maybe... All of it applies. And what can I say? I am happy, very happy indeed. (dances around the room) Ily v much, Jer :)

Friday, friday.

2011-06-24T13:44:00.001+08:00

My new fringe. Reallllllly short, I'm not used to it actually. :( But I'm trying to embrace it. The only thing is that it looks like bangs when I look straight ahead, urgh. Bangs are so... Secondary school.

Anyway, I had time to snap pictures because Peh's late and until now I'm still not sure if she has left house since we are supposed to meet at 2pm. And I've dinner tonight with Yewt! B's gonna be meeting his secondary school friends and I have plans too so I guess I wouldn't be seeing him today. I haven't seen him much this week either, since I've been meeting up with many others prior to today. Allright, gotta run. My next post should be up soon, it's on queue after this one! Haha. First time I'm doing this. Have a good weekend, everyone :)

BBQ @ the Khoo's!

2011-06-23T11:39:00.000+08:00

BBQ Party at the Khoos! I miss how the 3 rascals would run from next door to my place and come into my house and liven up the boring afternoons even though they were always a tad too noisy. My neighbours and my family were really close, we would travel abroad together and have dinner at each other's places every fortnight or so. What's more, our parents got along really well too. I would even spend days baking with my neighbours and I watched the little ones grow up. Used to carry them everywhere downstairs and sing them to sleep. Old aunties at a supermarts actually thought Nicholas was my son a few years back -.- My goodness. I miss having them around, but they are still the same. Still as noisy as ever :B So together with my family, Jer came with us as well to their place. The kids were already accustomed to his presence, having met him before. So they continued torturing him the entire night, not needing any moment to warm up at all. It was so cute ^^ And we met Goldie for the 2nd time. She's huge and she's not even a year old! Golden Retriever and Poodle mix, but she's a real dear. I love fluffy dogs, so huggable. Everyone was taken with her the entire night, so adorable really. :)

The first 2 pictures of Kirsten and Jer are so cuteeeee. I asked them to smile and they sat there smiling, then I told them to scoot closer so the #2 picture was the end result. So cute. Kirsten's really shy so it's quite a feat. The next 2, needless to say. Nicholas was consumed with tickles. And I don't know why it slipped out of my head but I didn't have pictures with the kids that night! (facepalm) Either I was too preoccupied with Goldie or with taking pictures of B with the kids. Wasted. Nevermind, another dinner arrangement is on its way for both of our families before I depart for Perth. Excited! To think about it, I should start slowly packing my clothes already. I have around 20 over days left in S'pore. Time is wheezing past extra fast, it's crazy. And I have so many people to meet in the next few weeks too. And G asked me to host farewell dinners soon, but I don't know what I'm supposed to do? /: Hahaha. Damn. I don't even know if I should be the host and stuff. HAHA SHIT. Char, help me out here? My time's running out quicklyyyyy :(

Oh and back to the BBQ night. We took Goldie for a walk after we were done with dinner. BBQ was super scrumptious - Think... Lamb, Wagyu Beef, Steak, Oysters (like a whole ice box of them, I heard 150? CRAZY) Mussels, Sausages, Mixed Salad as sides and Alcohol like Beer, Vodka etc. Jer says it's a BBQ at a whole new level. Hahaha. Jean's place is on the same street so we walked down and reached her house in a matter of minutes. Rang the doorbell and just nice, her friends were over and there were other dogs too. So Goldie made friends with Truffles and Max whilst Sparky stayed locked outside. Hahaha. The floor was filled with slobber everywhere but it was cute seeing them run free and Goldie exploring around the place. She's so adorable, Jer and I couldn't resist giving her treats. I look like crap in the last picture above but Goldie looks super cute so I'm posting it. We walked back around 10ish and Jer + the kids played Wii, the rest of us sat talked and bummed around the place before we left at around half past 11. Mum and I dropped Jer off before she drove back.

SO CUTE :B :D :) ^^ Okay so I'm gonna get changed, the boyfriend woke up late and I'll be seeing him for lunch today. Having dinner with the girls tonight, been quite some time since the last that I saw them - which was at Rebel when we clubbed together. I have no idea what to eat for lunch.... Don't have much of an appetite and I'm kinda sick of all the food that's been hurting my already sore throat. Bah. I ought to get ready, gonna run now. Bye!

Enchanted.

2011-06-19T20:46:00.009+08:00

6th!

Jer and I spent our half year mark doing something different. It's only our 6th and we're still young as a couple so we decided to feed on the initial excitement that would stem from celebrating monthsaries together. In actual fact, we don't quite need a reason to do so actually. So it was around 12 noon on a typical thursday morning when we headed out, the sun was scorching and spending a minute or so outside the car would make either of us break out in perspiration. The initial location didn't work out so we went for the second one on the list. After finding a shaded spot, we took out our brunch for the day. Mac & Cheese, Sausages with Tomato & Chilli sauces, Tuna & Ovaltine sandwiches and Apple cubes! I think I prepared far too much food though, we had so much leftovers at the end of the picnic. I handed him the scrapbook I made for him; which I painstakingly spent days to months thinking about. But as long it's for him, anything's worthwhile. And for the details of the scrapbook, I would leave him to be the only one to know.

We spent our time hopping up suddenly when insects decide to make residence on my picnic mat, smacking them and using wet tissue to clean up the area. And it was only after we had many battle wounds from having our blood taken by the resident bloodsuckers that we started spraying the insect repellent on our limbs. But it was a little too late. The hot spots that always get bitten on my legs were attacked, urgh. It doesn't help that rashes like to develop there when I sit on any foreign place that's filthy as well. Haha. And we decided to test if the repellent works by spraying it on a green little insect that was running about on the bench nearby. It took more than 5 sprays for it to start slowing down in its escape attempt, hence we concluded it wasn't a very effective repellent. Haha. And then we decided to take tons and tons of continuous self-timer shots, of which I had to delete quite a few. The rest are up on facebook, I didn't post all of them here.

I proceeded to tug him around like a ragdoll in the pictures. But of course, he had his revenge as well. He has way more expressions than me too -.- But there's no surprise there. We got bored of our current location so we went on a drive! Looked at pretty houses, sleek cars that we both oogled at and areas where the rich lived in. And then I brought him to Marina Reservoir, where I used to command $8 - $9/hour during the YOG period doing virtually nothing, until the last day where there was stock taking till late. I remember spending most of my time standing next to the coaches and watching the rowers/canoeists in action in the figure of 8 or just sitting in the air conditioned office making notes and revising for the upcoming examinations. Whereas the boy was a volunteer at his site instead. Haha. Plus I didn't have to wear the YOG shirt, ^^ And I could communicate with Ser & Haz who were at Bishan Stadium and the YOV via the walkie talkies we had. Hehe, good times.

We chilled around, mindless chit chatter and lazing in the car to hide from the treacherous sun rays. The night didn't quite end there for us as we still had to head back to my place, freshen up before we made our way to Timbre for Serena's Surprise Bday Dinner. Haha. And then to the airport after that to surprise Char before she left on the flight to Europe. Envious much, I miss Paris!! I remember walking down the crazy flights of steps of the Eiffel Tower. Major mistake, the wind and chill made it so much worse to do so. Should have just stuck to the lift. And i didn't get to try the macaroons back then when I was in Paris. I was going crazy over shopping at all the boutique stores with my mum, carrying the crazy number of shopping bags from Chanel, Prada, etc for her. And then handing over to the boys to bring them back to the hotel so we can go for round #2 in Galaries Lafayette. Anyway, I'm going to end this post abruptly. Need to make a trip down to town before Fathers' Day Dinner tonight! Bye all. Ps. In case you didn't notice, Dora's my favourite character! After Rilakkuma ^^

6th.

2011-06-16T00:54:00.000+08:00

Do you remember all the city lights on the water?

You saw me start to believe for the first time.

Happy 6th, B.

Half year mark - Time passes so fast. We've got a car for the whole of tomorrow and a whole day of activities packed for us! Hehehe. I can't wait! Shall sleep earlier today to conserve energy, since I'll be getting up early to prepare the food for our mini picnic ^^ (excited) !!!